字 与 照

My days at Ipoh comes to an end when the Christmas bell stop ringing. I had a lovely week here although it’s short. Surprisingly, I was able to meet up with all my friends and have a chance to chat with them. Not in so depth, just a simple talk, perhaps we could feel the friendship still there.

作为一个开头，很喜欢用英文

或者喜欢 或习惯性

觉得不用华语来开头比较好

但是这重要吗？

就像在一场谈话中 每次都聊开了 像场争论

但这不是辩论 我不会争着要赢

赢 对我来说 也并不重要

我在乎素质 在乎那个意义

如果你觉得开心的话

做什么事，其实重要性只在于你自己爽不爽，开不开心~

回去了KL

看着人来人往的车站

不知人们的心情是如何

是不舍 还是期待？

对这

我已变得麻木

一个人坐在车站

等待 似乎已变成习惯

不抱着任何的心情

平淡的

静静的

可是还会期待下一次的归来

突然想起那天摸酒杯的时刻

很潇洒 很大人

因为能够坐在那 像大人般的聊起小孩子不再明白的事

再拿起酒 狠狠的喝下去

也不会像以前一样觉得酒难喝的样子

对 长大了

这也是长大的过程之一

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很多时候 都听到不同朋友对我的看法

有时候会在乎 有时候会选择不去理睬

因为这就是我自己

你可以说我串 但是你不能抹杀我惯性想置身事外的权利

有时候 真的希望不用言语 就能达到共识

也许 你觉得你懂我

但是 人是复杂的

在背后 总有很多 你不知道的

我同意你 不代表什么

只是觉得有时候你说的 也是对的

但 我认同 每个人都有自己的故事

你可以继续你的

我也在活着我的…

Merry merry Christmas~

It’s Christmas’s eve yesterday and it’s the time for me to have gathering with my secondary schoolmates, which are also my dear longest-journey family. I hope we all have our precious time at this special day, special time, with special people.

♥总是喜欢在人群中找回自己

在你们中，找回最纯真的自己♥

对于今年的聚会，我其实没有什么想说的……

因为一些话在心里，只有你们才懂……

我开心的源头总是别人

所以只要看到你们开心，我就会笑了

觉得每一次都要抱着感恩的心态

因为每一次都是难得的

帮忙准备的

帮忙收拾的

帮忙吃的

所有出席的

都是难能可贵的

说着大家明年的去向，可能出席的人数又要减少了。又或者连自己也未必能够办得到，但我还是那句 我会尽量给大家一年一个gathering~就算只有少少的几个人，聚会还是会有的……

或许大家都是‘老夫老妻’了，就像Soong说的，有很多事情不必说出来，我们expect大家会懂的。我突然觉得有一首歌的歌词很适合 “人生几何，能够得到知己” 得到了你们，是我的福气，我一定会珍惜。不管隔多少的距离，只要大家有心，永远都不会迟的……

大家都是特别的

也祝我KL的朋友、COS的家人、还有看着这篇文章的你

圣诞节快乐 =)

Merry Christmas~

Thanks mum for doing so much things for me =)

Thanks Soong for her beautiful and special little Christmas tree ^^

Merry Christmas everyone~!!

U all rockz! ♥ u guys!

Photo can be fade away, but not our friendship =)

辩

精辨终于圆满结束……

这几天　都没有让自己好好休息过……

这是一味的忙忙忙……

忙到自己也觉得有点过火了……

是否真的要这么的对待自己？　我责问自己

每一次当自己最忙的时候 我都会这么问

要知道值不值得……

朋友说我是个‘理性鬼’……

有时候真的对于自己的过于理性感到辛苦

有时候想太多　顾虑太多

令到自己过于执着

所有东西都有好与坏的一面……

只是你站在那一个观点去看

就像是看了这么多场的辩论

正方与反方的立场 其实都能成立

但辩论的定义 与争议 是有待讨论的

我无法否认人生 其实就像是场辩论

每一天 我们都在和别人辩论 甚至于自己的矛与盾辩论着

就像辩论 输赢其实并不重要

赢的那方 只是有明确的论点 看起来合理所以赢了……

但是到头来 过程 才是我们需要真正去体会的……

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说到看了这么多场的辩论

无可置疑 晋级的都是强手

区区中学生就有如斯的想法 我真的为社会感到欣慰

但当然以他们自己有一套想法为前提

而并不是单靠教练的指导

如果真的是如此的话 他们又肯为社会付出的话

我是觉得国家 甚至世界 真的有救了

但不谈国家 不谈政治

我只想说 这几天学到了不少东西

华语有急速进步了一些……=P

但相对的我知道自己也失去了某一些东西

可能在忙的时候忽略了别的朋友地感受

我只想说声对不起 我真的无法同时间顾虑到这么多东西

然而我发觉 当一个人成长时 看事情的层面会变得不同

处理方式也会一样随着更改了

学者去接受 随和 不想做无谓的争执与理论

有时候 过得去 开心 就好了

可能有时候结果真的很重要

但是对我来说 过程 是不可缺少的 =)

神圣·婚礼

I am not suppose to say how tired this wedding trip was. I am not suppose to say how rush we all were. I am not suppose to say how amazing the feeling it was during our 'private night car talk’ along the journey. I am not suppose to say some feeling just get into my heart that easily. There are many things I wanted to share with, for this two days lost to my lovely lecturer—Ms. Jasamine’s JB wedding.

Yeap it was firstly a crazy journey to go JB at 12midnight. And we reached Hui Kee’s house about 3something in the morning. 2 hours later get up at 6something, getting dressed, off to video shooting, and this is my all day long for this particular wedding.

But really feel grateful because this is my first time went to  a Christian’s wedding, which is very different from traditional Chinese wedding. The feelings brought to me at the Church was really amazing and unexplainable. I just hardly to express in words. Please allow me continue with Chinese…

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真的觉得获益良多。对于这场婚礼，仓促、繁忙、劳累……但是这一切我都觉得很值得。 至少在感觉上，心灵上，很满足……也真的很感动……

第一次，全程拍摄一个完整的婚礼。

第一次，感受到那份爱可以真的那么的纯真。

第一次，看到那对坚定不移的眼神、紧握的双手，而感动。

当新郎签下婚姻协议书

当新郎当场作一首歌来表达对新娘的爱意

当新郎 与新娘 宣誓 要一起走到老时

当新郎紧紧握着新娘的手，把戒指套上的那一刻

我都觉得这一切都来得不容易

很神圣，并无法形容的感觉

真的要亲身站在现场，才能真正地感受到

我实在无法形容那已失去感觉……

但是真的很深刻

那压抑的激动

相信这就是世上的希望

对爱的希望

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我是一个很难相信爱的人，对于爱，我觉得很虚幻，没有保障，更没有永恒。朋友说我太理性。可能吧。但是今天的这场婚礼真的有触动到自己感性的那面了。真的要掉下眼泪，就在新郎新娘宣誓的那一刻。我觉得很真，真的觉得有一份真爱其实是存在的……感觉真的可以有那么一对人，深深地爱着对方，肯为对方牺牲，包容对方的一切……一切都发生在那一刻……也真太不可思议了……因为真正地感受到那份悸动与喜悦……已超越一切……

我感受到了，也领略不少……

有时候，无声胜有声

只想祝福这一对新人幸福快乐……在你们的‘主’关怀下，能够一起走到生命的最后……

Speak my mind

Finally my second semester ended with Ms. Winnie’s terribly and unexpectedly hard paper. She hunted all of us down successfully. I guess she is smile or even laugh in her evil style at the back of us when she sees our nervous and desperate expression at the exam hall. Anyway, the exam finally comes to an end. It’s time to rock the days with movies,gathering and whatever entertainment. I even plug in my speaker and open it loud to enjoy the surround, what is more, to form a mini cinema for myself  

And my plan for the holiday is pretty full. Going JB for Ms. Jasamine’s wedding, HELP’s debate event, gathering for COS, and going to move things to new condo. After all the zapbalang things only can back my lovely hometown. Having Christmas party with my lovely friends and getting some rest at home for a couple of day (perhaps this is the only few days I could have during this sem break~!) 28th need to back immediately for PD camp and preparation for balik kampung. It is packed with all event this time. But I think I will quite enjoy, at least not wasting my time at home =D

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There are many news and post at Facebook for past few weeks. The news at Facebook can spread extremely fast, and there are also many mindless ‘animals’ just like to follow the trend blindness. Yes I called them animal as they are just like copycat and I usually called this group of people mindless because they don’t even know how to make use the function of their brain. Pathetic. 

Well, there are another group of people could not stop the rumors and what they can do is make use their power. Brilliant and beautiful. What more I can say to describe them. Perhaps stopping Facebook is not a badly thing. Imagine there are another rumors or bad post at Bloggers, and some of them said block the download stream as well, then I might have no other place to go already.  Good then, can cut the streamyx and sleep at home everyday even save money! But what I am thinking is why they rather to block this block that which spread rumors, but didn’t block the porn site. Sarcastic.

I will definitely respect the decision made, or say it more clearly, we have no way to oppose, like they say must wear sit belt at the back as well and must stop the makan rasuah, but see what happened in the reality now? As a normal citizen, what I can do is just sit down and see what they will do next. There must be more interesting as the story go on. Stay Tuned.

生命

是了今天的主题就是生命

还是压抑不住自己来了这里抒发一下
相信有在Facebook的活跃分子
应该懂那位为爱情而轻生的年轻并“有点样子”的小伙子吧
他的名字我也不好说了
引起各界的热烈反应
这是普通Facebook的影响力

有的人支持；有的责骂……
有的觉得可怜；有的觉得他自己拿来的……
什么各色各样的comment都有

对于自己一贯不跟风的性格
我不愿在别人那里多作留言
但脑海里却出现了“人是如何看待生命？”这个问题
我之前就说过，‘思想’是现代年轻人缺乏的元素
如果一个稍微有想法
有真正去考量过‘生命’的真谛的人
是不会那么容易轻生的

我不会想谴责那位年轻人
虽然我会说他幼稚、缺乏思想
但是人都不在了
其实写那么多，去支持，去责骂
还有用吗？
更有人开fans page 给人去“like”
我想说如果死者是幼稚的，他们所做的更幼稚
但对于还在生却‘崇拜’这位‘对生命潇洒’的年轻人
请真的用一用你们的智慧去想一想
家人、朋友
看着你的尸体时会有什么样的表情

生命的价值真的因人而异
对一个杀手来说
只要你给的出一笔可观的价钱
生命算些什么？
但对于 我们这些普通人
我只想说‘生命’这虚幻的物体
看化尘埃，就让一切顺其自然的走过
如果你要自己去主宰
你有权自己去了断
但是现实的社会告诉我们
其实你没有资格去主宰
就算你不在了
你还是会被人评论
成为话题
然后事情会过去
你也会渐渐被人淡忘

事实就是如此
终究选择还是在你手上
但是作出了选择你还是会发觉‘人其实是没有选择的’
因为会有人告诉你‘你的选择是错的！’
然后你就会质疑你自己

很庆幸的
周遭的朋友都是有思想的
而且是positive thinking
虽然有带谴责的意思
但是他们令我觉得自己拥有乐观的态度
是被他们而影响的
当然家人以扮演一个重要的角色
如果没有好的家庭
不好的思想就会很容易侵袭
总之对于生命
我自己还是觉得是无价的
想一想‘蝼蚁亦尚且偷生’
我们是万物之灵的人类
启发思想吧

Life isn’t a thing, it can be more than that

Christmas around the corner

Woots~!!!Have change my playlist to Christmas song. Just want to let people to feel the atmosphere of ‘Christmas is near by!’ My Christmas mood will be ON soon~immediately after my final =D

I know that I was crazy with blog recently. haha~I just cant control myself to write something on Windows Live Writer =P totally in love with blog now no matter you say me was a bit over or sometimes just bullshitting on my blog. Anyway, this is my blog and I have my own rights to write whatever here (this is the best thing to blog!). And I want to thank Lala~who is always the one keep track on my blog and post comment here =D thanks really~ I know there are some my other friends who will see this. But I’m sure not everyone has such patient to read through every single words in detail. (who cares again?)

I blog my life. That’s all I wanted to say. Not purposely for who, but particularly for myself. This is where the passion is lighted up. I just enjoy what I am doing now. I don’t mind to share this to my friends if I get to know this might motivates them, let them to think or get to me closer. All post have its own meaning and what make this post special because this is written by me with my sudden thought, the thought might not be come again.

Anyway, merry Christmas in advanced. Will get back to KL later and fight for my final on Monday and Wednesday. I think there wouldn’t be long updates for next few weeks. Take care =)

Inspiration from movies

I have been stayed at home this two days, did not study but watching movies at home. Felt guilty of course but I just not in study mood   Talking about the movies, I was terribly in love with the brilliant movies which inspiring me a lot, (—”3 idiots” and “Eat, Pray, Love” ) two different kinds of movies, but give me different inspiration about life. It tells me something happened might not be happened in this way. Likewise, life is full with fate, but somehow, if we willing to make a change, it will change. “Live life more creatively”, this is what I get from the movie “3 idiots”. Something just doesn’t necessary to be like this, fixed or unchangeable, perhaps we must have a ‘think’ to make change, and that’s reason why we have Bill Gates and Mark Zuckerberg as well. Not because they are brilliant man or own an incredible IQ, they just willing to make change with their creative mind. Life doesn’t necessary to go with plan, as plan made by us, should be decided by us, and have the ability to change by us.

And I watched another movie this afternoon, spending a couple of hours to watch it seriously. “Eat, Pray, Love”, a movie cost me 3 hours. Fortunately I get something from it. It was another inspiring movie. I just love the way the female character lives for her life. Although not being lovely for half of her life before, but she finally realized there are something more important to be exposed but not just live like an ordinary citizen (educated, worked, married, and live happily forever after). Is that a real life for us? For Liz (the main female character), she doubted. Maybe everyone should have this process, get educated, get a job which is nice paid, get a good relationship, get married, compose a family, wait your life until the end, death. And many think that this should be “normal life”. And as we are “normal human”, we should be just accept the normal things, do the normal things.  I mean what kind of life should be that? I cant really accept it, perhaps give me a reason, cant me just be a bit extraordinary? as I believe everyone has own uniqueness.   

This movie also evokes my dream—to travel around the world and get to know other countries culture. It just a BIG idea that in my mind many years ago. To get more exposure, see around the world, is always my dream, maybe many other people’ dream. Isn’t it amazing if you get to know the language, the culture of a country, even get to know the story of a street girl or boy. Listen to their story and compare their life with yours. You will find how lucky you were to be in this world. And how much I wanted to collect all different kind of stories around any corner of the world and share with others. To let the world know or notice that, there are some people around somewhere are having some kind of problems, but they are still alive and never give up in life. Compared to what the citizens who live in prosperous with lots of luxuries. they will never know the feeling and appreciate what they own.

Life is still going on, like my blog title said, is MUST go on~

Maybe you will say I ‘m too much into the movies, it still written or create by someone, it not gonna work in real life, we must face the reality…..blablabla…. But who cares? Perhaps it brings some meaningful inspiration to me, to evoke something that in my mind. I believe I can do it in my future, to chase my dream, and that time, reality will tell. =)

 

 

 

 

Life is about sharing

I found that I have blogged too much recently…just too many things need to share out when I saw something, experience something or feel something. In fact, I am just too free to blog whenever I get back to home, and just feel ‘very in blog mood’ when I sit in such a comfortable living room. Being at home is always the best, when we grew older, when we stay further, we will know the nostalgic feeling for not being at home at ‘miss home badly’ moment. For sure, I wont have that feeling now.

So what I ‘m going to share with for today?

Well, I have added a ‘like’ button at my blog post, which is quite out-dated as I saw my friends already have it. But it just look ‘not bad’ if you have some Facebook gadgets in your blog (like the badge all that). Another out-dated things which most active bloggers might be using long time ago is Window Live Writer. Even I know it was a bit old and stay in my laptop for a very long period but I just ignore it, and now only I started using it. But I found it is really awesome because there are lots more options and easy to blog just like using Microsoft word. So bloggers(who don’t know this), and you are frequent updater(like me,), WLW would be highly recommended to you.

Artistically talking, I also started to discover more about Adobe Premier Pro as I need to do some video editing stuffs during my holiday. It is quite stressful as both videos also important, even one of it will be the weeding clips of my lecturer. I just want to do as perfect as I can~! Oh I realize that what I exposed recently were all related to ART!!! Maybe I’m just born to have an artist character, but sadly I was not talented enough   Anyhow, I still love doing artistic things and nothing going to break my heart on ART

a psycho who love art

Touch

又没有一首歌
能够影响你的心情？
如果有的话
那你也会明白我的心情

一直一直的　重复

听着一首歌……

一首能够打入自己内心的歌……

那旋律……

那声音……

就简简单单的……

进入了　内心的最深处

第一次听
就爱上了
也是第一次听
不知道是不是配合道心情
两行泪　不知觉的就这么流了下来

要用一首歌来打动我
其实是满容易的……
因为自己很容易被简单的旋律与声音　
吸引　然后感动

很感性的说

我喜欢用一首歌来述说自己的心情

那这首歌又没有述说到自己的心情？

我不知道

我只感受到一点莫名的感动
觉得人生短暂
自己是不是也应该找个人来爱了？
不用惊讶　也不必觉得我发娇什么的
我只是突然觉得　有时候
一个人的时候
也真的很需要一个人来陪
伤心时　有人来安慰
至少在你找不到朋友来述说时
那个人会发挥作用

以前总觉得　一个人　也可以过得很好

现在　也没觉得　有什么了

一个人　两个人　都好

一直都在寻找着

那个　能够感受到自己心跳的人

当你真正看的懂的时候

明白我的心情的时候

你就成功进入了

就像这首歌一样……

简单的唱入了我的心里……

♥Please dont let me go

I just wanna stay

Cant u feel my heartbeat?

Giving me away ♥

探

Again spending some time on blogs walking...
Is just like going to a person's door and explore what is it inside...
I enjoyed doing this of course...
Not like exploring or stalking about a person...
But to understand a person more in depth...
May a simple word bring something to u as well as the writer...
A sentence that may contain something...
A paragraph that may express some feelings...
U would never know a person until you really see what they post and what you understand from the post...
This would be the most interesting part....
As the bit and pieces, bring a huge and meaningful expression and emotion by a person
Amazing isn't it?

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其实是
很喜欢看了别人的部落格
突然有感而发
想写一些东西 回复他们

p/s: 不想你们对号入座……
只是想发表自己的想法罢了……

曾几何时的自己 也天真地以为 能够找到了解自己的人……
但出到来社会……
工作过、现实过……
才懂得这一切并不容易……
并不是了解这么简单……
这包含了 信任 与那份没有包含任何添加素的真情……

我也以为很了解自己……
才发觉 要写出一个关于自己性格之类的……
有很多可以写……
但也写不出……
因为自己一直在变……
就算此时此刻我多么的了解我自己想要这么做……
但下一刻我不敢保证我会不会后悔……
所以我作的结论是 连我自己的不懂我自己……
其实要别人懂我，更难……
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
说到了解一个人……
有时候你会发觉当和别人相处久了……
你‘以为’你会很了解那个人……
有时候并不是的……
或许我这么说……
你并不懂有些事情对他来说是多么的重要……
而有些事对他来说 根本就是玩笑……
对我来说 很多时候我都可以以一些比较幽默的方式来带过……
一笑而过，并不是那么容易能够做到……
至少我的忍耐度比较强……
对于自己的某一些原则
真的会很认真地看待……
一旦原则被打破……
生气 是必然
但在生气的当时
脑袋一会不停的转
那两立的抗战又再出现……
想必 现实那方 又作出了胜利的表现……

能发泄出来时好事……
至于能不能改变事实……
其实对于这点　我还是觉得不要抱太大的希望会比较适合
就好象我说的‘我们好象很了解一个人，但是你其实也并不是很懂他’一样
至少被你说‘了解他’的那个人会觉得‘你凭什么觉得你很了解我？’
很多时候我们都很希望被了解……
希望别人知道我们想要什么
但是人是矛盾的
当你说了解他的时候，
他就会觉得被拆穿、被冒犯的感觉……
所以要理清这一点　
其实真正了解一个人，不需言语上的表现
细微的关心与沉默　表达的或许更多
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
对我来说
要了解我
是个绝对艰难与复杂的的process……
因为‘被拆穿的感觉’会比‘希望被了解的感觉’来的重
不喜欢被看透……
但喜欢看透人
我变态
但我读的是psychology并不是psycho~

思

终于忙完了前阵子的考试……
这个礼拜属于娱乐活动……
再来就是回家准备另外一场战争……
战争后，又是一大堆的plan……
忙读书……
忙娱乐……
忙着玩……
忙着做一些自己想要做的东西……
我忙……
我会急躁……
但是忙自己喜欢的东西……
我可见得真的不是很介意……

很讨厌自己处在乐观与悲观的矛盾之间……
很希望自己不要那么的现实……
但是事实告诉我们……
人就是要现实的……
你不现实……
只会对自己残忍……
让自己活在那天真无邪的世界……
可能真的与世无争……
但是有谁又会那么甘心……
静静的活着而莫不出声？
但往往就是我们的‘不甘心’……
害到自己自己不开心……

每件事情在每个人心中的重量都不同……
我并不认为自己很会分……
但是至少我自己会衡量……
有时候也只能劝自己不要把事情看得那么的重……
就好象自己背着一颗石头一样……
也只是看你自己怎么去背……
才不会让自己觉得沉重……
如果觉得那颗石头不重要的话……
可以放下就放下吧……
但相反的，那对你很重要……
那你就要换个做法……

方法与态度真的很重要……
你可能会用错方法……
但是忽略了态度……
那意义在哪里？

Verstande

1. 有时候纯粹不想说话，就这样……
2. 很多事情都有两面，看你往哪一方面去想、去看……
3. 我看到了两面……所以会矛盾，会迟疑……
4. 在处于两立的世界，我无处可去……
5. 闭关了两天……心情也沉淀了许多……
6. 明天要面对‘社会学’考试，心想尽力了就好，看来还是逃不过命运……
7. 有些想法会改变……但有些会一直一直的出现在脑海……
8. 在学习着不跟风，不轻易被人影响，去证明自己是有思想的……
9. 开朗的我就快回来了……那黑夜会被天明取代……
10. 结束了，其实只是想硬硬写到第十句……

p/s: 话说这个title只想学以致用……verstande 是德文……understanding的意思……读socio读到疯了……

糟·空

只想说心情很糟
完全没有读书的心……
只是感觉到很疲惫……
不想被命运左右……
试着反抗……
但却发觉无论你多么的努力
一次又一次的对抗着
结果还是敌不过命运
最累的不是要努力的对抗……
而是在努力过后却改变不了命运……
这才是令人最累最无奈的事了……
无论我多么的相信努力能改变命运
但是现实告诉我
你不够它斗的……

今天的自己很悲观
只是此刻的我无法去乐观
不要批评我的悲观
不用置疑
我只是想写下自己现在的心情与想法
不用刻意的安慰
如果需要的话早就post在面子书了……
张贴在这里……
只想保留那么一点的空间给自己……
或许看到这一切的你……
会明白我的心情……
谢谢你的关心
至少你会去看完这篇文章……
我的乐观会回来的……

19

The feeling I want to record down for today (not only for today...for this week perhaps)
is horrible and terrible....
People cant reallly feel it if u ever done a research paper all by ur ownself...
and this is also the first time I rushed my assignment non-stopped until 5 in the morning...
the first time I pass my birthday with this gift from Dr. Goh...
the first time I pass my assignment just on time...
My mood was swinging around...
Without enough sleep...
And actually I was not really conscious on what happened today...=P
But I will not forget there were group of friends who celebrate birthday with me...
Friends who are stay far away...
but still post some blesses on my facebook wall or sms me...
I have no idea how to express this out...
The feel of simple can make things special...
Like what I have told leeyee...
It was totally simple for me...
But really I am fully appreaciate it deep in my heart...
Perhaps I just dont know how to express literally...
----------------------------------------------------
其实生日每年都有得过……
对我来说真的是一年比一年过得还要简单了……
越简单越好……
其实并不需要多……
有心就够了……
有时自己真的没有太执着于某些有的没有的……
有也可以
没有也没关系

或许我真的很想要某些东西
但是有时候与其强求……
不如往好的方面去想……
学会知足
学会珍惜拥有的
不是对号入座
只是觉得有些道理是对的
可能此时此刻真的很想去杰伦的演唱会
但真的觉得自己能力有限
或许妈妈与姐姐都说得对
我没有资格也没有能力
说服她们根本是没有可能的事

或许你会觉得我生日的post有点emo……
但是这也是我长大的表现吧
思想怎么说都改变了
我想说其实我不伟大
有时也会有那么一点的自私
很矛盾也很无奈
简单的来说
真的很少人能都真正的接近我……
那个真正的我
我不擅于言语
我也不懂自己再写着什么了

 只想对任何一位祝福过我、陪着我一起度过生日的家人，朋友……
说声谢谢~
这是简单的
但却不平凡…… =)

Critical period

Again still rushing my assignment until half way...
would like to come up here and throw all my tiredness and madness
I just ''beh tahan'' to glance through the past reseaches and researches...
Why we cant just write...oh i forgot i dont have the authority..
perhaps I became a professional one day
and write my own theory
then no need tortured by all the brillian and hard-to-understand research and studies...

This week will be the critical period in part of my life
Kind of suffer between individual assignment and exam...
Really out of time to revise for exam
Perhaps I should finish my assignment first.
and sadly to say
I have to pass my birthday with my "lovely" mr. assignment and mr. socio
THANK YOU SO  MUCH~!! x.x
For giving me such a "good" birthday present...
I fed up...
U win...
but I will still try my best to fight till the last moment...

Terrified

Is being tortured by assignment and coming socio final exam...
Just feel over stress recently whenever assignments come...
What the hell I am doing?
Seriously no idea...
And suppose I have no time to blog but just feel-to-blog to make me relax and happier...
and also felt guilty whenever my evil,devil or whatever my bad housemate asking me to play with them
I just cant control myself...
Oh my god...~!!!
I was just too hate myself and actually the evil was in me, not them
and hell knows i have no idea how the past i have gone through
no matter how hard
I have been gone through

Optimistically view
It's actually the same
even though sometimes we feel that is not same
but the process actually the same and started over and over again~
Assignment/tests--scare and cant sleep and do til midnite--finally pass up on time and pray hard for grades--pass
it still will come to an end
it just maybe the result or outcome will not be the same

Perhaps at this moment
I told myself
It should be done!
and before that I should take enough sleep first...
Nite =)

jill's De PhoTographer

Love to take photo...
Love music....
Love everything related to art...

I think if I'm not taking Psychology..

I will be taking photography or music...
Though be realistic, it is a tough way and spend more than ever...
Still I will keep it as a hobby...

Perhaps there is something else other than odd and meaningless college's life...
Music is one of the component in my life...
As well as taking photograph...
How much I wanted that to have a bag of money to buy all the things that I want...
But coming back to reality...
It was nothing is really really important...
I just love it...
perhaps it just make my life more luxurious...

I ♥ DSLR



♥ music



♥ myself

oh this is the recent me who go out with my hometown friends

Had a very good time with my family and friends here for 5 days...
Got a chance to celebrate Susu's birthday as well as my be-earlier birthday...
It's just a simple dinner with mum's cook...
But it means more than ever....
A simple cake with a simple birthday song...it is more than special~
Greatest satisfaction and happiness and warm...
Thank you ♥

我说

我望出窗外……

看着妈妈站在火车站外等待着……
她还看不到我……
而我就在火车内看着妈妈期待的望着人群……
等到我出来了……
她呆呆的望着我说：“黑眼圈又深了……”　
我苦笑了一下……
心里莫名的悸动……
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又趁假期跑回了家……

很珍惜也很把握每一次能回家的机会……
因为真的很难的……
想着自己接下来会有很多东西要做……
差不多每个礼拜都忙的时候……
想要一个月回一次家真的很难……

而这个礼拜……
回家……
只想送自己一份简单的生日礼物……
简单的买个蛋糕跟妈妈庆祝生日……

记得前几年都是跟朋友庆祝……
总是期待朋友们会怎么帮自己庆祝……
期待着惊喜……
也曾抱怨过妈妈没帮我庆生……
甚至不记得我的生日……

但我好像忘记了谁会记得自己最痛苦的时刻啊？
感恩这两个字……
我把它丢去哪里了？……
我竟然忘了那个最重要的人……
那个把我带到这个世界的人……
也忘了她在那天怎么辛苦的把我生下来……
惭愧了……
学会不再任性……
更学会了平静的面对一切……

又看回了自己以前的文章……
真的不得不笑以前的自己……
写的东西是那么的幼稚……
对……
现在不幼稚了……
也不能幼稚了……
现在的小孩可以幼稚、可以天真……
是幸福的……

我静悄悄地来过

我慢慢带走沉默

只是最后的承诺

还是没有带走了寂寞

了

忙碌
我已不晓得是什么东西了……
无法形容现在的自己
只是觉得生活
过得充实
时间都被很多计划挤满了
找不到时间工作
或者是放纵自己太久了
不想回到工作的社会
对计划是要钱的
没有了工作
钱的来源就是痛苦
说要存
没有工作真的不知那些钱从哪里来
想要的东西很多
却发觉自己是无法满足的人类
更是一个没有能力大学生

了解了……
妈妈说的对
真的很想过一些无忧无虑
想什么就要什么的生活
谁不想呢？
她真的很想给我想要的……
但现实点吧……
学习着知足……
与其想着要更多
不如想自己其实已经拥有很多了……

''sentence-like'' story

Oh I am going to make this sentence by sentence but not writing essay, it's just a mind at the moment


1. I am sort of mentally imbalance for rushing two assignments together for the past few days.
2. Emotionally unstable psychological speaking.
3. This sem going to end soon and this year going to end as well...
4. Trying to flash back anything that have gave me the best memory, but I cant....
5. Everything is memorable in my life ever...it wouldnt easily fade away...
6. Obsessive and cant wait to go to Jay's new era concert next year =D
7. Money is a HUGE problem~ x.x
8. Yea there is something called ''ah-ha'' moment in life...unfortunately that I cant note all down =(
9. Mr Socio is very terrible...I hate it in a way that I also love 'him' so much...>.<

No no no...
Have nothing to write anymore...
Perhaps not now...nitez =)

sense of restless

Feeling so restless this few days after get back from bonding trip last Sunday...
Din post it out and I just kept it in my draft....
Again wrote till half way
mood change
emotionally talking
I was not in mood to continue my writing
and there are messy thoughts in my mind
so I stopped there and did not make any new post

Yet
there are many things I wan to share with
but time just not allow me to do so
I said assignment week which indicates that my assignments due date coming soon
and I need to spend at least 2 days to glance through all past researches, theories and references
and another 2 days to complete it perhaps...
No I'm not a genius
I dont think the assignments will be done incredibly good
(for sure the lecturers that I knew are very strict )
But still there are efforts that I will put on
try my best to complete it at least

yes
I am emo now
hate to use the word "emo"
but it would be the best word to describe the mood maybe
being emo is not a sin
being emo even is a trend
everyone likes to say this whenever they are down
no they wont say I'm so down or desperate or whatever but using the word "emo"
I like trend
but I hate the blindness to follow the trend
I judge
I wonder
Is that really the existence of something is wrong?
Things just flash in my mind
and there are too many at once
makes me feel breathless and numb
Restless
maybe a journey back home can make me feel better

It such a day, can be complicated

Got back my email address or msn finally...
What the heck of the hacker using my account for whatever purposes
I was totally not interesting...
I just knew that all my contacts are lost
and I need to add back one by one....
Fuck off~!
Not really know what's shit or dump inside their brain
to have such a suck idea
to steal people's account password and delete the contacts inside...
What's the purpose huh?!
For fun? Or they just an idiot who likes to play on such stupid and useless and lame things?
Damn it all and it never ever going to influence my day~!

I dont really care it as it's such a small matter lar...
At least my email is still there which connect me to many other websites and links.....
That's enough....
It not BIG enough to ruin my day....
But I was really pissed off and frustrated when I need to add back the lost contacts...
@.@  X.X  ?.?
or watever it is....

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That's about my mood in the afternoon lately...
Of course that emotion did not bring until late night...
Stay calm and review a lot things suddenly....
About family and friends...
I bet the feeling of missing home is appeared...
Whenever I have this thought....
"I wanna back home~"
The feeling is even stronger when I nearly have a chance to get back home...
Like nothing or no one gonna stop me from that...
Yes I just miss home
mum,bobo,lovely sofa and bed...

or maybe friends there...
They are just so caring and make me feel warm...
Leeyee,keanchew,winnie...
or whoever I didnt mentioned his or her name...
But will at least see-ing this post...
Really...
thanks...

As u saw this....
Maybe u are not care about me
Or u jus SIMPLY click into my website
and SIMPLY glance through my words...
U can just ignore this and SIMPLY put a "nice" or "like" on this post
without comment because u dont want me to know who u are...
That's fine and okay for me

"Life is just like a box of chocolate,
you will never know what's it taste next" by forest gum
=)

此刻·点滴

抛弃了工作的生活已有两个礼拜……
日子从没停歇过……
除了忙还是忙……
想说的是
当然没之前读完书之后就要敢去工作的忙碌……
现在还可以挤出空闲看看自己喜欢看的戏……
发一下呆……
看一下自己还是那么钟爱的那片天空……

充实
是的
         开心
         有时也是的

至少还没有弄到自己不开心的事

会尽量不去计较……

尽量不去管那些有的没有的情绪……

有时候
            简单
                    我爽
                            快乐
                                   就可以了

宁静

有时在慢慢地侵蚀自己……
唯独音乐
能解救
我说
没有了它
生命好像
缺少了什么

喧闹的城市

静静的我不出声

细心的观察

身边的一切

仿佛可以置身事外

但原来

我还是逃不掉

那个叫做‘现实社会’的枷锁



Mind makes all differences

Wanted to write something...
Not because there is something to write...
There are some thoughts I wan to share with but cant really write out...
I dont know what I'm talking about also...
Perhaps a chinese post can make me feel better....

=========================================
依然不懂要写什么……
但是就是很想写些东西……
读书读得有点闷吧……

人长得越大……
就越觉得死读书、死背书真的是超级无聊的事……
如果死记死背的话……
那么叫机器人去考试算了……
反正一定能够拿满分……
我们是人……
人之所以为万物之灵……
是因为我们有思考的能力……
也因为能思考让我们变得特别、不平凡……

反正我就是认为人的头脑，人的思想是个很厉害的武器……
有时候更会觉得恐怖可怕……
因为人的思想范围比数学的infinity更加的infinity
之所以读心理学……
是因为想更加接近人的思维、人的思想……
但读了之后才发觉……
连结构都可以那么的复杂……
更何况要去了解‘思维’
一个那么抽象的东西……

就好象刚刚想不到要些什么……
到现在写了一大堆关于思想有的没的……
可知我想的东西是多么的复杂一下……
对……
思绪是凌乱的……
最近塞太多东西进脑袋了……
一下子有点觉得负荷不来……
但是书还是要读的……
就算觉得死背没有意思……
但是面对着考试……
人还是要面对现实……
=）
微笑·世界还是那么美好的……

Attitude

Hometown friends =)

Let's keep it short and simple....

Having 2 crazy days with my hometown friends coming from Ipoh...
It's like a trip and me and su just like tour guides...

Yeap having so much fun with them...

Yeap eat a lot of nice yet expensive food....
Yeap play a lot and spend a lot....
No matter how tired or crazy it was....
I'll still on for everything...
There still a long way to battle....
I need to gather the power before proceed on to the journey...
That's life....

I like a statement from my friend....
Leong fun~
He say that it's better to live for a 0.8 life...

"0.8 是一种生活态度，凡事不求完美，但求八分好：吃饭八分饱，让胃部吸收得更好；做事出十分力气，只抱八分成功期望；爱一个人，留两分自由呼吸的空间给对方；“0.8”的生活态度并不是不进取，而是给自己留一点点空间，让自己能坚持走得更远。"

0.8 It's an attitude...

An attitude which not going too much for something...

Not perfectionalism...

Try your best in life but leave some space for improvement...

"Play hard but study smart...."

Is another statement that I love so much....

Because that's the life I want~!

Play as crazy as I can....

But will also spend time to study and be smart

Teenage life should be like that....I think....

Let's enjoy it first

before it's too late...=)

It's highlighted

Seriously no time to blog...

Many things I need to work out and
finally and hopefully my busy life will come back to peace
after I stop this part time job...
Yet I will still doing some thing
and not to let myself hanging around earn nothing...

~~About study~~
I think I have missed out something....
Not doing any revision or reading on any subject materials...
Basically I dont know how I'm going to face the exam coming next 2 weeks =.='''
Assignment always work on the last second...
Also I dont know how I'm going to perform well in those subjects =(
But still I will try my best to get all things done before it comes to an desperately end...
Not being hopeless when there is still a chance =)

~~About work~~
Like what I said....
And what I have told my counsellor...
Interest will come first before everything to get through...
So I just do whatever I like to do....
Still now as a student I need to find a more suitable part time job....

~~About life~~
There is many things else I want to share with...
But mostly I have share a lot with my counselor already...
Having a very good conversation with my counselor today...
It's a simple counselling session for my assignment...
But I learned and discovered a lot about myself
throughout the one hour session =)
I like the firm confirmation from the counselor...
Stated that I have the potential to be a future counselor or even a psychologist....
Not only make me feel happy...
but also encourage me to stay strong with my choice...

Again I'm grateful with my life
that expose to so many different kind of people and experiences....
It makes me become wiser for sure...
And it taught me really know how to appreciate everything deep from my heart ♥

回到母校·回到过去

阔别了许久……
我又回到来这片土地……
因为要settle ptptn文件的关系……
我有借口回母校……XD

回中学的感觉还好……
因为毕竟也只隔了两年……
期间也有回去过几次……
可恶的nasi lemak uncle竟然没有开挡！
没关系……
搞定所有文件……
回小学去……

隔了差不多5-6年勒！
我终于有机会回到来！
记得过往那几年校方的警卫都很森严……
没想到这次竟然会这么容易就能进去了……
那些小学生……
个个都小小粒的……XP
但最重要的当然是去食堂回味一下当年的感觉……
laksa云吞面  鱼蛋仔  炸付皮  milo味冰条
都有当年的感觉……
“一切都很小学”……
想起来真的感触良多……
还有回去找了当年的班级老师一下……
林老师还是一样的和蔼、健谈……
最庆幸的是老师们见到我们都很开心……
真的很希望能够有个小学聚会……
大家聚在一起的感觉应该是很特别……

回眸过去的自己……
幼稚过、自闭过、白痴过……
可能到现在还保留着那么一点的稚气……
但是比起当初的自己……
真的还是变得现实、社会化了……
记得朋友说的一句话……
唯一不变的就是“变”~
对……
事与物一直不断变迁……
谁能确保一成不变的人生？
即使再坚硬的钻石也可能有被粉碎的一刻……
所以不要告诉我永恒……
因为我不会相信……至少现在的我是这样认为的……

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今日晚上饮茶的话题……
当然还是少不了梦……
发梦……
依然是我们喜欢做的事……
笑谈着过去……
还是很享受听着驻唱然后细诉着岁月的光阴……
这种时刻是买不到的……
只能尽情地享受……
每一次相聚的时刻……

我觉得今天是个“怀旧日”……
回了母校……
听了很多怀旧金曲……
细说了很多陈年往事……
如果要用一首歌来代表今天的心情……
我觉得“最佳损友”来代替是蛮不错的……
我想也只有你们会懂…… =)
“从前共你 促膝把酒倾通宵都不够
我有痛快过你有没有
很多东西今生只可给你
保守至到永久 别人如何明白透”
送给你们,我的最佳损友 =D

Dreams still go on

Ok I admit I'm not strong enough to maintain my achievement....
I cant make sure that I can maintain both my work and study...
Therefore I have to give up one of them...
So sorry work...
I think promoter working time is more suitable for me...

Really stressed out and tired for the entire month...
I knew I can cope with it IF I REALLY WANT
But what's in my mind now...
Is just stop work and better concentrate on study first....
Maybe I just dont wan to take the risk....
Maybe I just not strong enough to face it...
Maybe I just need so rest...
Maybe I wanted to be live like a HUMAN again...
Or no more maybe...
Now I just want to follow my mind...
Do whatever that I happy and this make my life =)
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输不起
我是输不起……
无论读书工作友情爱情……
不是不愿尝试……
而是害怕尝试了那种失败的感觉……
觉得自己是承受不起的……
那就不会勉强自己……
尽量的做自己觉得对的就行了……
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明天就要出粮了……
看着眼前的“债务”……
算了算真得所剩无几……
眼镜   手表   手机   衣服
还有周杰伦2011 演唱会门票……
几时我才能得到你们？？？！！！
 郁闷……
但是还会解决眼前的问题……
至于附属品……
应该还不是我现在这种年纪能达到的……
有剩再说吧……
===============今日话题===========================
今天和朋友谈到……
梦想与工作是不可能相提并论……
对的……
你可能找到适合的工作……
但未必是你喜欢的……
你梦寐以求的……
因为梦想在现实中是需要金钱去实现的……
没有金钱不代表没有梦想……
但是缺乏金钱的梦想……实践的机会率真的非常渺小……
九巴刀那句话还依然深刻的老在脑海……
“说出来会被嘲笑的梦想，才有实践的价值……”
我依然是个抱着无数梦想的人……
想要在这些梦，付诸于实践……
真的需要大量的时间与金钱……
尽管时间与金钱都是辅助品……
我觉得自己更加需要的是一颗坚强的心……
坚强的，不能轻易放弃的心……

~梦不会变，只要心肯坚~

Discover life

There many things that I have discovered everyday in life...
But because life is so damn busy...
I have no time to record everythings down in a short moment....

So here my discovery for the pass few days...
~I knew something...but I dont know something...

~I'm sorry for every stupid things I did before...I just know I not in mood at that moment...

~Maybe things will be gone through very fast with time...but how come my time run so slow recently?

~There are many people live like a corpse like me   x.x

~No matter how busy my life, how non-human life this is, when comes to playing I will feel alive again =D

~I just love to play...who dont like to play by the way? XD

~I edi used my time wisely...1/3 for work, 1/3 for study, 1/3 for play....oh wait...where is my rest time?

~I'm not miss my home...Just miss everything at my small village BADLY...

~Many time I appear as a positive-minded person, but sometimes I cant be very negative too....

~People always say I am the strongest person that they know...
I said: "people always enjoy the show in front of the stage, who would ever know how much effort people put in? u would never ever know a person behind the scene becoz u wouldn't have interest to discover every bit and piece of the person."

~Now I just waiting for my day to come...

Life is never ended discovery....

--to be continue--

对不起谢谢

真的觉得自己没有那个资格……
我并不值得别人为我付出什么……
我只是一个懂得对别人好……
而当别人对我好时
我是不懂得怎么去应对的人……
没有人是笨蛋……
我才是白痴……
白痴才会拒绝别人对我好……
白痴才会那么做……

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我相信缘份……
我相信时机……
但我更相信自己……



一个人的天空，依然可以很美丽……







Nothing but sharing

We're still on blogging....
Tell different story....
note down different mood...
different days.....different title....
But we all just the same....
Wanted to say something out....
Share something will or will not be known....
Especially no one to talk to....
Perhaps we dont want to talk...
This place would be the best place to go....

I have no where else to go....
But here....
Trying to share my feelings for the past few days....
Really enjoyed my raya holidays will my lovely friends...
And also my mum who cooked the delicious food for me....
I always appreciate the every moment I spend at my hometown...
Because it's rare....
And I know how hard for the working me to back home at least once a month...
Thanks everyone who have accompany me and make me smile for the last few days =)

Back to normal life at KL....
I just miss home seriously when I back here...
Maybe I just don like the rountine life here...
It never be good until have an outing with friends....
The only thing can make me happy...

I have nothing else to share....
But recently I love the quotes from the sms from my friend...
"A strong person knows how to keep their life in order.

Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm ok" with a smile.
Changes will come and hardship will over."
This is what touch my heart and I truly believe....
All hardship will come to an end....
And people who strong will get victory...

家·简单的幸福

很想把今天的感觉留住……
很久都没有试过那么的想念家的感觉……
回到来这里……
是真的有莫名兴奋感……
能够再一次吃到妈妈煮的饭时……
真的有那么一丝感动……
“我又有汤喝了……
我又有妈妈拿手的家常菜吃了……”
就是这种简单的感觉……
很温馨……
很舒服……

就可能是那么久久的一次……
我才会珍惜……
才会觉得这一切都不简单……
能够和妈妈坐在一次吃饭……
那是多么幸福的一件事……
一切都来得这么的自然……
却一点都不容易……

也趁下午的无聊时间找来阿焦、阿kok还有阿宝……
来家打打麻将……
然后晚上再约了ren，su，jy出来……
难得大家都得空……
难得大家又能聚在一起……
大家的口还是一样的贱……
还是喜欢‘仄’阿ren~
哈哈~
就这样愉快地谈着……
像往常一样……
同样地点……
同样有聊不完话题的我们……
不同的是我们的观念……
一班年轻人慢慢步入社会的观念……

回想起昨天一度失控的自己
今天可见是好很多了……
不需要倾诉什么……
可能我需要的只是无语的陪伴……
那种实在感……
就心满意足了……
好像反映了不甘寂寞的自己……
或许我就是这么缺乏安全感吧……

谢谢你们的陪伴……
谢谢那些給与过我鼓励的人……
我的生命拥有你们……
所以你们的生命也可以拥有我 =)

脆弱的倔强

不肯低头我死都不低头

你要我什么都可以就是不能给你我的尊严

生活虽然艰苦但我有骨气

不需说什么我并不需要同情可怜

是朋友的话一句：“我‘十扑’你！”什么都够了

是没错

我正在精神崩溃当中

就连肉体也慢慢陷入无法形容状态

行尸走肉

用这个词来形容自己

一点都没有错

我懂我无法做些什么

只想发泄

管我发牢骚、发噏风

什么都好

就让自己就这么的不理智一天

幼稚一天

意志消沉一天

累了

哭了

只剩下自己

不想让别人看到自己懦弱的一面

尤其是她

不会让她担心了

我告诉自己

就是这么的脆弱

但也依然倔强

你管我跌倒站不稳

就是不要你扶

站在旁边给我加油就行了

就当我是在学习走路的孩子吧

放手让我自己去尝试
跌倒然后自己爬起来

伤口还是我自己的

这些都是我自己倔强拿来的的痕迹

却让我警惕自己要靠自己不然没人能帮到你

求人不如求自己

自己选择的路，

别说跪着、爬着

无论如何都要走到终点。

moody 多愁善感的自己

I know how moody I was recently....
Sometimes can be very crazy...
Sometimes can be very calm...
Sometimes can be very sad...
Sometimes can be very happy....

Perhaps making myself happy....
Even it's pretend to be....

It's the first time I know how hard to maintain both work and study...
It's the first time I know how professional people can be in work...
It's the first time I test myself....
Taking all these...
As a challenge...
I'm still working out of it...
Try to overcome it....
I was thinking to give up when I was tired...
Thinking to just left like that without any regret....
But I know it's not worth to....
So I told myself....
I have to do it!
At least for two months...
Perhaps I dont waste my time,my money and my family and friends' trust....

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真的累了……
就在短短的几天……
想着要在学业与工作之间找到一个平衡点……
真的是一个很大的挑战……

真的很想很想证明给自己看……
证明给家人朋友看……
自己的能力……
但并不是想逞强……
只是想给自己一个机会……
去试试看了解自己到底能不能在这复杂的社会生存……
不想就这样放弃……

就算是多么微小的自己……
也希望能够靠自己生存…

家庭并不显赫……
过着简简单单的生活没什么不好……
但偶尔吃一下苦……
可能真的让自己成长一下……
就像以前那个整天吵着晚上睡不着的自己……
现在每天晚上回到家……
唯一想做的事就是冲了一个很舒服的凉……
然后躺在床上……
就这样自然的入睡……

没什么好埋怨的……
是自己选择的……
就要负责到底……
这是我对自己的承诺……

有无意义的数字

来到了第435个贴子……
435这个数字对我来说没有什么特别……
倒是今天……
831对大多数马来西亚人来说……
是富有意义的数字……
然而对我而言……
那只是有多那么一天的假期……
让我呆在家休息罢了……

国家独立了53年……
在这53个年头……
种族之间经历的……
好的都记录在历史里……
不好的……
都记在人们的心里……
管它的争论、争权……
争什么都好……
都没有想过插手……
可能我们身为人民的
真的有那么一点的权利……
但是又管得了多少呢？……
不满我们绝对有权利去发泄……
但是说完了……
就算了……
何必像别人一般见识？
要吵要讲就让他们去讲吧……
保持自己高尚的一面……
EQ高显得自己也聪明一些……
不是吗？

撇开没有意义的数字……
对我有意义的数字可真少……
除了自己的生日……
好像其他的都不怎么样……
可能是自私……
可能是不屑……
不屑纪念些什么……
不屑其他无关引不起自己注意的事物……

写到这里，
我想起自己每次坐巴士总会遇到奇奇怪怪的目光……
不明白为什么人能抱着奇怪的眼光盯着一个陌生人……
可能因为自己绝对不会做这些事……
所以才感到奇怪~

听着自己的歌，
仿佛活在自己的世界当中……
并不想理会世间周围发生的事……
把自己变成了尘埃……
多么微小的自己不想让人发现……
自卑感来了……
觉得自己并不特别……
并不值得受到别人的注目……
就只是简单的人一个……
也很喜欢那一个人的简单……

901没什么特别……
只是大一的第二个学期……
要为同时工作也能兼顾学业的自己加油了……^^

Let's BREATH~

I believe that TIME really make us grow....
To become more mature and wiser....
It's not that we just experience the life we live in now....
Not only as simple as a breath in breath out process....
But what we are DOING in life.....
It means everything....
Like we try to overcome the barriers and troubles that we met...
Make us FEEL that "WE ARE ALIVE~!"
And that is just my life....
I fight for it....
I live for it....
Maybe sometimes it just made me hard to breath....
But it make me realize that "I am still BREATHING~!"

This is what I discovered today....
Hardtime will pass by...
It just a normal recycle in life...
Try to overcome it to prove that YOU ARE ALIVE~!

30 Hour Famine 2010

Yeap....
I joined 30 hour famine this year too ^^
Again I'm very happy to go with my friends this year....
More friends are joining me even though not all are in the same group...
In a group of 10....
I knew 6 of them....
And make few new friends...
5 of them....Philip,Zulynn,Jialerk,Jen and also the group leader Jasmine~
They are all kind and warm person....
Really happy to meet them and have a chance to stay in the same group...
We are just like family in the past 2 days....
As we need to always stick together and work together in games....

Really enjoyed to be there....
even sometimes a bit boring for some games...
But back to the theme this year "Light up their life!"
There's a chance for us to know that
even in a big and developed city
poverty still exist....
This is what we couldn't ignore
because even our country...our city is one of the examples....
Poverty exist all around the world....
No matter an undeveloped country or well developed....
There are still many hidden story that we might not know....
But through this camp...
We saw that....
We also knew that....
This is the fact and this is what we going to do this year....
To help the urban poverty...
To build a city with 0 poverty...
Maybe a city might be beautiful when you just look at the cover....
but who will ever to travel to an unpopular place
and look into a very deep and serious problem in a city?

This is what I get from the camp....
I just can share with my family and friends....
Hope they know it and who able to help...
Do something for it....
But for myself...
I just can participate in some event like this...
And spread the news....
But I believe in some day...
I would be able to help them directly by myself....

Perhaps at this moment...
We are just like to play, like to enjoy....
But we took serious in what we do....
We took this as challenge...
We make it not only for ourselves...
But also for the child....
They called them the "future" and also the "present" now...
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为自己有能力范围能做到的……
而感到骄傲……
给与别人帮助，是生命快乐的来源……
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♥ LOVE AND CARES ALWAYS BE THERE ♥

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Fight for hunger =D

Group photo for the games

Taking photo with ever funny emcees-Marcus and Vin

We are group 22!!!!Y^.^Y

♥♥ We were together ♥♥

单

最近很一个人……

一个人吃饭……

一个人睡觉……

一个人等巴士……

一个人坐巴士……
一个人工作……
一个人听着歌……
一个人看着风景……
一个人走在街上……

就是做着什么的……
都独来独往……
学习着……
依然在习惯着独立……
其实一个人也没什么不好……
也许从小就习惯了……
单亲……单身……
自由自在的……
不被约束……
也不缺谁的陪伴……

但也有那么的一瞬间……
是孤独的……
是空虚的……
有些事还是那句……
“习惯就好……”
没有什么可以不可以的……
只要习惯了……
一切都变得没什么……
变得自然……
变得平凡……

再怎么单，都有一双腿陪着……

♥感恩♥

Latest me

Sometimes there is something not related at all...
But it just happened to me....
And this is what I'm going to write and say out....
1. There is a "no head pimple" on my nose now~damn pain and I hate it!
(maybe sleep too "early" this few weeks)
2. There are so many people sick now...Have to take better care of ourselves =)
3. One of my result just come out and I'm not that satisfied to myself....
4. Training now everyday except Sunday. I dont know what will be after my new sem starts...just go ahead
5. My mind now is just always money $$$$$$
6. I'm not sure how to balance between work and study....will see how and try my best to maintain it =)
7. The pressure haven come...so I dont know...
8. Learning is a life process, it is endless unless you stop breathing....
9. What a "wonderful life", sleep in the "morning", wake up in the afternoon...
10. I just try my best to enjoy my life now....
11. Smile when I get trapped in troubles =)

Life aint routine as you think
Maybe sometimes it would....
But we have choice to make it fun and enjoy =)

纯·简

刚从‘龜咯’回来……
第一次去johor~
Batu pahat是个什么地方……
我之前也只是听过而已……
‘龜咯’是在‘笨珍’里……
原本的下乡地点……
看到了那所‘龙引小学’……
真可惜我们并没有在这里留下一点的缘分……

但是我还是来了……
感觉还蛮不错……
简单的渔村……
单纯的渔民……
朴素的生活……

真的还有一点留恋那里的生活……
无拘无束……
自由自在……
最重要对着我最喜欢的海洋与天空……
很平静……
很轻松……

很喜欢那蓝蓝的天配着厚厚白白的云……
加上海浪的声音……
简直是绝配……

记得简单，也是美~

单纯的♥，也是感性的~

享受完了……

也是时候回到现实……

为了生活加油吧……

Cut off all

Feels like to cut even shorter...
Yeap....
I'm talking about my hair....
I know it's already short....
but still lazy to take time to take care of it...
And I know many would say too boylish....
Whatever la~
Who cares?
The most important is I like it.....
I think short hair is suite for me anyway =)

Feels like to cut of all~
All my troubles....
All my silly thoughts...
All my barriers....
All my messy things in life....
May bring out a brand new me....

Contempt towards the sarcasm....

I could see through many angels even with one eye...