17.4.14

Do what you love,live who you are.


这个重新认识自己的旅程
我希望我的人生 可以更精彩
我不奢望大富大贵
生活过得满足、平稳、最重要是快乐 那就足够了
生命 真的不只有单一的事情
还有好多好多值得我们去关注 去欣赏的风景
今天的感触,是源于一段无聊的谈话
但是我很享受
我执着喜欢着自己一直喜欢的事物,可以是一首歌,一杯咖啡,一段风景,一个人。
尽管工作我无从选择,
在周末做下自己喜欢的东西,享受一下人生
也不是一间很难的事。

这一刻,享受人生吧。


1.4.14

至我熟悉又陌生的朋友

可能我们真的不是很熟
真的不算熟
但是我记得你是我们的一分子
那个整天酷酷的 默默地个子高高的身影
听到那样的消息
心情真的很沉重
或许我不应该那么的伤心 (因为我们不是很熟)
但是我却无法高兴
因为你曾是我们的朋友,我们的一分子
我是个很群体的动物
我认为的朋友,是一辈子的……
尽管我们少联络,尽管我们没有联络……

可惜的是 我们的聚会只会越来越少人
你的离去 最痛心的莫过于爱你的亲人和你的女朋友吧
身为朋友的我们都可以那么感伤了,我的确无法想象那种白头人送黑头人的痛
一个人的离去,可以使解脱,可以是释放
但是给留下来的人 的痛苦和思念 是永无竟止的
尽管自己已经面对了不少的生离死别
但是离别来袭,我们连那说句话到别的时间都没有的那种感觉
真的很不好受
人的生命,真的很脆弱
我们都不知道下一刻谁会被带走
或许真的真的要一直提醒自己 活在当下吧
若把伤感变成正能量 那你会变成我们永不会忘的朋友
并让我们知道生命脆弱,人生苦短
大家能聚就聚 惜时把握
至少现在的大家,还能够因为你而聚在一块……
我希望 你为我们留下来的并不会只是悲伤
那将会变成 我们凝聚的力量……

永远怀念- John叶家勇

23.2.14

从前的从前 很喜欢写作
喜欢 陶醉 在那个自己与自己对话的时刻
但是生活忙碌 成了自己慢慢忘了与自己对话的借口
不变的是 我还是喜欢带上耳机 享受与音乐独处的时刻

心里 有很多话说不出口
打也打不出
说穿的话 就好像把自己赤裸裸的呈现在别人面前
有时候想人家明白 有时候却想把自己隐藏的很密很密
很多时候出现的矛盾 也成了消失在blog的原因
有些人喜欢把自己大小生活毫无余地的呈现在别人眼前
有些人只喜欢与自己最亲密的人分享 然后让其他人都把他看成是个谜
我是后者
我喜欢和人分享 但只限于我认为信得过的人
我不喜欢把那个不快乐自己呈现 
不要别人看见自己的脆弱
仿佛很多人都想做到看似坚强的铁汉子 纯爷们
谁都知道看似坚强的人 其实很脆弱
但是不要去揭穿
因为那是他们保护自己的模式
揭穿的脆弱 让人不知所措
让人不懂该如何去面对
因为要欺骗人 首先要欺骗自己
他们好不容易才把自己欺骗了
现在的揭穿 只会让那覆盖着的伤口 赤裸裸的呈现
恐怕刺痛 只有伤的人才懂

(叹气)
好端端的一个周末想抱着一个好心情写下blog
写下写下不知道为什么变成谈坚强谈伤痛
可能明天又是个monday blue
但是无论如何生活还是要过
下个月的阳光与海滩在等着我呢!


New

想了良久,终于鼓气勇气
重新写blog
2014年,我跨过了悠游自在的大学生生活开始了我人生的新一页
新加坡,从前看似陌生却充满憧憬的地方
来到了 才慢慢发先 其实和kl的生活差不多
不同的是,少了那份亲切感
少了朋友们无所不在的热闹
现在的生活 可以算是重新开始
又回到了原点
就好像回到大学时期 刚开始的孤独精
不同的是,以前在大学 大家一定要聚在一起 
认识朋友 不是难题
现在 不是上班就在家里或自己一个人吃吃逛逛
我的同事 只有2个
一个是个很烦很孤寒30岁还没有女朋友的典型星加坡男人
另一个是有老公大得可以做我妈的女人
再来就是我两位老板了

我的生活  就这样 日复一日
上班 下班 吃饭 回到家上网看戏
可以用枯燥来形容
周末就约约大嫂朋友逛逛街喝喝茶
我认为很没有life的日子
因为这样的生活 很容易迷失自己
不知道自己忙忙碌碌 昏昏噩噩 的存在着 到底为了什么?

尤其是在一个人独处 感到无助时
那份寂寞 把“自己”吞噬得一干二净 
有时候很想反抗
但却无能为力

从前的习惯一个人
到习惯两个人
发现习惯两个人 比习惯一个人来的危险
因为当回到一个人的时候
尽管从前多么的习惯一个人
还是会不习惯

等待 永无竟止的等待
把自己锻炼的很有耐心
活在喧哗的城市 我 显得特别寂静

26.1.14

When one learned about love...

Love is the most fragile thing on earth
No one gonna promise eternity 
Even how much you love the person and so firm that you gonna spend the rest of your life with him or her (at the moment)
When ones feeling is loosen, no one gonna change it
No matter how hard you are trying to fix it
When ones refuse to do it 
You are just left alone trying to fix a thing that requires two to work it out
Love is stupidity 
Love is childish
Love needs two mature person to make the chemical effective
Loves is ever complicated....

17.10.13

Got my first permanent job after degree!!

Now that the new stage of life is just begin.
Finally I found my job as a recruitment consultant, will be working in a small company but it might be alright for me as fresh starter.
So last week I had passed this CEI test where every recruitment agent should have take before they working in a recruitment firm.
Not really hard as long as you have get your reading and well-prepared.

So this week while waiting for my working permit to be ready,
I get myself to visit to some places and try to get used with transport system and life here.


Above were two new artworkd done by talented street artist Ernest Zacharevic at Victoria Street, Singapore. 
His painting was so famous back in Malaysia, but here, 
not too sure it's still new or people here are just too busy, 
I can see nobody really care much on beautiful artwork like this. 
Busy city huh?
I did feel very awkward and outstanding when taking the photo around there alone.

So today I went another famous tourist point- Clarke Quay.
There are boats available for the tourist to travel around some hotspot in Singapore. 
3-4dollar one way, consider quite cheap.
I had my short breathtaking view and enjoy the strong wind there.
*i felt i am so much like a tourist xD*

Job had been settled and should be no problem to start work next week.
But now another problem comes: Permanent accomodation.
Couldnt stay at my cousin there due to some reason and I need to find a room myself to move out.
Still viewing some of the rooms here as the rental is way too expensive!

Hope could settle this problem as soon as possible in coming days or week!
More updates from work hopefully will be up next week :) 


3.10.13

没有灵魂的躯壳

社会忙碌的步伐 让我渐渐遗忘 那个沉实的自己去了哪里?
每天看着人来人往的街道
每个人 仿佛像个没有灵魂的躯壳
各自玩着自己的电话 掩饰自己的寂寞
闭上眼 带着耳机 假装沉溺在自己的世界当中
身在其中的自己 也学会了模仿
也假装沉醉在自己的世界当中 
不让人看见自己的寂寞

这种沉闷的生活几时能结束?
我不知道
我只想尽快总结这无业、让我闷的快死的日子!

30.9.13

New chapter - Job seeking period

When the moment I finished my degree, 
I reliazed, here its where I should start my new chapter of life.
While working at KL or Singapore its both of my choice before,
I am so eager to go Singapore to seek my new challenge in life.
Everything is so new to me..
New environment, new transport system, fast-pace life...
Its all so challenging for me.
Reminding me the first day I went KL study and have my new life alone there.
It is so awful that time when I was getting away from home for the first time.

Likewise, I tried to learn patiently about everything here.
I am very dependable on the mrt map and luckily those apps and online websites are useful too.
Not to forget to thank my cousin for giving a place for me to stay for a short while, and my brothers and sister in law have helping me so much in bringing me for dinner and lunch sometimes.
Comparing to days before, or even others who are seeking job here,
I am lucky enough.
I am lucky enough to have so many relatives to rely on.
I am lucky enough to gain so much help from them.
Thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

I got my third job interview today during my seventh day here.
Everything so far going smooth, yet needed to wait for the call whether I am shortlisted as the candidate for second interview.
It's just one week here but I felt so tired and discourage to find job over and over again.
However, things like this which always trying to hit me down, had make me to stay strong and be persistent everytime.
It is just the begining, I believe, the road will be getting tougher and I need to accept whatever challenges ahead! :)