Sick...homesick...

I miss home badly....
I miss my mum...
I miss my dog....
I miss everything at home...
Such a month din back home....
It's really train me to become more independent and stay strong without mum...

Finally I will have a chance to back home this weekend....
Purposely for Tomb-sweeping day(Ching ming) to pay the respect to my ancestors....especially HIM....
I will still miss HIM sometimes....
I know HE is protecting and blessing us somewhere up there....

It's too short that just back for two days....
I wish to have more...
but have to wait until my sem break....
The only thing I could do in this two days is only cut my messy hair....
Growing longer and longer..feeling troublesome to handle it =(
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Just called mum and told her I miss home so much...
She told me to back early although the bus ticket cost a bit expensive....
I think she also miss me very much....=D
Cant wait for this Friday to come
though I have a calculus quiz going on at the same day....
Anyway...
I just want to be HOME!!!!

Study the people, learn from the people

So busy for the last two week because having two camp continuously and din not take good rest during my lovely weekend....
And I'm getting busy and busier for my COS meeting and prepare for my final...(even I'm not really that prepared yet...x.x)
I realize my life is getting more and more crowded with people.....
I met a lot of different people recently and get a chance to know them deeply....
I like to meet new friends....
Like what I'm going to encounter in the future....
My job will regard about dealing with ‘people’.....
To be more sociable, I try to join clubs like COS,
and try to associated with different friends....

Anyway,all the activities I joined are all Chinese based society and association...
So it's better to write in Chinese.... 
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==起点==
最近才发觉……
我的生命又有个不同的起点……
上到了大学……
认识到不同的人……
遇到不同的事……
记得当初从一个人认识到两个人……
到现在认识越来越多的人……
有更多的朋友……
再接触了下乡……
也渐渐接触不同的人与事……
一下子有很多陌生人突然进入我的生命……
原来那种感觉……
会那么的复杂……
因为很害怕会忽略了身边的每一个……

==感恩==
就今天我又参加了一个‘慈济’的活动……
才发现原来最近的自己都再加入很有意义的活动……
遇到了一班拥有同样目标，一样热血的朋友……
很振奋也感觉到很欣慰……
因为社会需要多一些愿意无私付出的人……
读心理学，不单只为了自己的兴趣……
也需要赚钱……
更为了自己的梦想前进……
一定要有足够照顾妈妈的钱……
也要尽力回馈社会……
帮助世界上某个角落需要被帮助的人……
看到自己越幸福……
越有能力……
越想为那些没有能力的做些什么……

==力量==
也许听到什么都没有、连书都还没读完的我……
妈妈一定会骂我傻、笨……
事事都为了别人……
但是在我的原则里就是这样……
能做多少就多少……
也许此刻的我没有能力……
但是我会量力而为……

可能说这一切都太早了……
现在的我……
连自己的学费都搞不定……
谈什么回馈社会？别人的事关你什么事？
但有时候未必要真的说要钱来解决一切……
我们没有钱……也可以回馈社会……
我们可以当社工或参加下乡服务，慈济，志工等服务……
人力资源对于救济群来讲真的很重要……
没有了这些自愿服务的人们，就少了一份很重要的力量……
我们只须付出那一点点的时间与力量……
就有能帮助那些需要被帮助的人……
比起那些捐助的人只能间接的帮助他们……
我们能够更加直接的给与他们援助……

哈哈~
说教说得有点过多了……
这也是我自己的一番见解啦……
希望大家能够多关注一下有关的社团与活动……

~一个人的力量是多么的渺小，但聚在一起的时候就会变得强大~

人生的‘难免’

终于遇到了艰难……
这是预料中的事……
打从自己做决定的开始……
我就知道这条路不会那么的平坦……
这是无可避免的……
有哪一条路是没有任何绊脚石的？……

我很累……
我很懊恼……
但我有恒心……
我试着去面对与完成自己所坚持的东西……
我会胆怯……
我会害怕……
但是我会勇敢的接收困难……

人生有太多太多在所难免的事了……
我们都无法预料事情突然的发生……
预料不了，更阻止不了……
我们或许能够坚持……
但是到了真的真的不能的时候……
事情就变得‘在所难免’……
我们就算无法接受，也得接受……

＝＝抱着希望，怀着梦想＝＝

I ♥ camp!!!!!

It's my 3rd time camp. Suddenly go to camp so frequently in this two weeks time. I just felt so exhausted and tired as I'm a super even hyperactive there  =P

I let myself just being as mad or crazy or high as possible so that I could enjoyed all the time. Honestly, it was another meaningful,memorable yet not as enjoyed and bond as the last bonding camp. But I do appreciate what the team are work inside the camp. It's true that we do communicate and help each other during all the activities. We run quite little outdoor games but it's already tired and excited enough. The first activity we run on at night admired me so much because it was a night jungle trekking. I had never go into jungle at night especially without lights! We went in the jungle in a line with group of people and just one person carry one torch light in front to lead the whole line and another person carry another one at the back. Moreover, the lights are not always on but just blink for few seconds. We forced to walk in dark and hands in hands so that we could support each other if any incident. We lost twice but yet we able to finish the whole journey and back safety.

Another day was "water balloon war" between two team. It was extremely fun as I'm the attacker in the war. It's fun too I run towards and hit the 'enemy'!(It's fun to hit people with water balloon!!!!XD) As I do hit by the 'enemy' too. Luckily, my size give me an advantage to escape from all those attacks.(wahahaha~) At last, our team won the game =D  It was fun yet tired and cause my back pain because too active when running all around the 'war zone'. Another admirable activity was "flying fox" that first had in our camp (we are the 1st batch to have it =) ) It's a bit scary but I just cant wait to accept this challenge because I never try before. For sure I like the excitement bring from this activity although my head was bang to a tyre.

There were also many talks and discussion work in this camp which bring so much boredom to us. However, what Mr. Joel and Mr. Sherson said were all meaningful speeches and we have to take and look into carefully in our life. There was a meaningful quotes that reminded me so much in my life. It is a quote by Chareles Reade: "I sow a thought, I reap an action, I sow an action, I reap a habit, I sow a habit, I reap a character, I sow a character, I reap a DESTINY."
We have to think of everything first before we could reach the destiny. It's not easy to reach our destiny, but in order to be there, we have to think of it first! Think of our future, we might reach our destiny at the end.

Same as the last camp, I leart so much from it as well as make some new friends and being close with more friends. I now are half filled with camping experiences and I think that it was good for us in order to growth stronger and wiser in life. It's not just fun and enjoyed but we could really take lessons and experiences from it.  

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I believe there are something we could learnt for everything we have done. As same goes to the camp that I have gone throughout this two weeks. I appreciate every friends that gone through all this with me, also I appreciate everything that I have learnt not just influence me for this two week but my life in the future. Cheers for everything and always appreciate with your heart =)

下乡·我♥

终于从下乡团的bonding camp回来了……
感触良多……
在这短短的三天两夜里……
不熟的变熟了……
文静的变热情了……
像我这种三八也变得更加疯了……
仿佛大家的隔膜都被学长们与大家的热情给打破、给融化了……

记得开始时……
大家还有着莫名的距离感……
过后就分队，然后在一起玩……
我也尽量的释放自己……
毫无保留的……
既然大家都是同等的……
有缘进到下乡团……
有缘认识到大家……
不管玩得几疯……
玩得几没有面子……
没有形象……
大家脸皮要有多厚就有多厚……
很庆幸的大家都陪伴着大家……
你做什么，我就做什么……
大家都把所谓的“自己”放了下来……
形成了真正的‘大家’~
就像你们说的……“不分你我……”
我们是个大家庭……
我又多了一个家……
只因为你们……

我又上了人生宝贵的一课……
又为了自己的人生添加了美丽的回忆……
虽然很辛苦、很累、还有点恶心……
但这一切换回来的笑容、快乐、拥抱、感动、还有一班拥有同样目标的朋友……
一切都是值得的……

没有辛苦过、付出过的努力，
哪会有开心、值得骄傲的结果？

我很记得我们一起坐过的木筏……
一起掉下水……
一起跌倒……
再一起手牵着手把大家扶起……
有过的微笑……
有过的拥抱……
我都历历的记载心里……

我们一起唱着我们的团歌……
带着同样的梦想……
向着同样的目标前进……
还有那种两目了然的感觉……
我看进他们的眼里……
哼着同样的歌……
我仿佛收到了一种信息……
一种是说不来的感觉……
只有一起经历过的人才能真正的了解……
当四目相对时……
我们知道……
我们的心是再一起的……

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后记：真的有好一段时间……没有这么疯颠得玩过……好像找回了中学时代那种‘在一起’的感觉……那种那么靠近……却知道有一天将会面对分离的感觉……我知道现在说什么好听的话，说我很爱他们也好、很高兴他们的出现等等……都不能确保这份心能不能坚持到最后一刻或知道我们分离或分离以后……但是我真的很珍惜……很珍惜有这么的一刻……尽管是短暂的三天……或未来的七天……我都会用最真诚的心对待每一个团员……
--我♥下乡--
--下乡♥我--

Brainless

There were people like to see the others suffering and having trouble....
Why they like to have this STUPID organization and BRAINLESS ACT ???
I think I'm one of the stupid too as I'm being fooled by the stupid.....
I'm really damn angry and f*** off
as I'm wasting my time and keep on waiting and waiting.. ...
We are all stupid when stuck in the long queue and crowd...
The most angry thing is when you queue for a so so long time
but you cant get in just to write a name on the list!!!!
WTF!!!!! @#$%#$%^&

Seriously I dont mind to do the duty as well as help the lecturer to prepare for the fun fair....
It is all for the marks(just only for 5 marks la!!!)
But could they be well organized a bit?
As a lecturer, they even argue in front of their students....
What the hell was going on?
Cant they be communicate well then only tell us what to do?
Felt disappointed to see that reality happened in front of us....

Even today is busy from morning until evening....
I was so enjoyed for the moment I play table tennis....
Long time din play already, it is still my favorite game
because I can release all my stress and whatever bullshit that happened today and "smack" it away....

Pheww.....
Sure I'm feeling better now...
Tmr will have a table tennis competition held at WISMA HELP
I'm representative of HMC.....(Hahahaha.....just for fun and din put so much hope....xp)
Even I know the probability of winning is very small...
I will still try my best to play....

Good luck =)

Nonstop busy life

Remember last friday I was back to Ipoh....
I went back KL immediately on Saturday afternoon....
Feeling so idiot and waste of time....
I just making myself tired, busy and just like a stupid....

Wrote my feeling immediately after the concert.....
==============SHE CONCERT======================
又从怡保赶回KL……

真的是来匆匆去匆匆……
原本打算星期日才回的……
但是姐姐一大早来到说有免费的VIP票去看SHE的演唱会！！！
是我期待了很久都想去看的演唱会！！！
在心有不甘之下……
问她有没有多一张票可以让我去……
因为我姐夫的哥哥是做“银河”的……
等等等……
直到了3点多我才收到消息……
有多两张票！！！！

YEAH!我立刻联络能陪我去看的人……
结果约了曦文……
我立刻叫纪元在我去bus stop，又赶回去了……
终于6点多我回到了……
又立刻赶去bukit jalil…
我真的什么都不管了……

为了SHE真的牺牲了很多……
为了她们赶来赶去……
为了她们没吃东西……
为了她们累剩半条命……
但是一切都是值得的……=D
虽然坐的位置不是很清楚地看到她们……
但是能感受到那种现场的气氛就足够了……

在这里要谢谢我的姐姐，姐夫帮我拿免费的票……
谢谢在我去搭车的纪元……
还有陪我看演唱会的曦文……
没有你们……
我也不能顺利的看到这场演唱会……
=============TASKs to complete====================
There are many tasks for me to complete this few weeks....
Feeling exhausted and tired to do all the things....
Firstly...just completed my human communication gruop assignment which I really touch at very last minutes...
though, we managed to finish it due date =)
Another task is community service....
I know it was the program that I choose for myself...
So I couldnt blame anyone but appreciate the busy life that it gives me....
As I've learnt so much and get so much fun from it =P
Hope we all will enjoy the bonding camp that will be held on this Friday to Sunday....

Feeling tired to say that my schedule on this Thursday is full.....
I cant say that the Fun fair tha will be held for the open day is extremely troublesome and lame....
Who will have that time to play all 50 games along the corridoor?
Sucks~~~
Somemore I have a sport carnival that will be held on the same day 4pm.
Means I have to rush to Wisma HELP immediately after the fun fair....
How terrible it is....@.@
Anyway, I should take rest now to charge my lost energy...

It just not my day

Out of my expectation....
I rushed back to Ipoh today....
I'm using the word "RUSH" because
I din meant to back but somehow I have something to do and back in a sudden...
It's not that important though....
But I was feeling "There will be nobody except me at home for 2 days...B.O.R.I.N.G~"
So I decide to back.....

At the moment, I din care anything and I just want to back before 5pm...
Oh ya....that is the 'something' I said just now....
The stupid Maybank card does not work....
Maybe could be settle at KL
but I dont think I can wait for it (or if the owner of our condo can wait for it)
It is so terrible to rush like that....
Take LRT,change line,walk like hell.....
I reached PUDU RAYA at bout 1pm....
And I just brought 1 bread and 1 bottle of water
then took the bus for my journey to back home....

It's not my day for many many troubles and something unlucky happened on me =(
At first the bus is so so so uncomfortable that I dont knw how to explain....
Secondly I cant call out using my maxis number because my mum haven done the payment...
I just could use the public phone to make the call and ask my mum to fetch me...
Finally reached home but the bank was closed...
I was screwed out because I met something bad consequencely....

Pheww.....
At least my mum was there for me =)
At least she is taking things easier than me....
I hope I have some of her thinking...
And I just rushed and cant do anything...
What for to back home?
Maybe IT'S JUST FOR IDOIT ME.....

Hard feelings

Feeling so bad recently....
Especially this week since I finished my exam as well "my beloved" CNY.....
Everything is going so fast until I cant breath....
Assignments and assignments everyday.....
I cant sleep well just because of assignments....
I cant eat well just all because of assignments...

The feeling of "pek chek" is really happened on me already....
How I'm going to settle all things within a night?
How I'm going to die die also need to 'vomit out' the thing?
How I'm going to do this do that???

What my feeling for the last three days is
I was like having a war.....
War that fight for time and everything.....
I cant really have a break because it was like attacking me if I rest....
Look I'm living in HELL last three days???
Now  I think I have returned to the human world.....

A big relief for me because I have done 2 assignments within 2 days.....
The happiest one would be the moral presentation....
Really really really out of our expectation...
We get a very good grade overall....
Din waste my hardwork for burning the midnight oil to do this assignment >.<''
Thanks for Ms.Sue appreciation....

Although the Statistics assignment nearly drive me crazy....
but now I have done it and I dont bother anything that might be wrong already....
That's the PROBABILITY....
I can either get good grades,bad grades or moderate grades.....
Hahahahaha....
I kind of mad because I dont know what I'm talking about also.....
Maybe it's time to rest....

Think of everything overall.....
==Take it easy, Make things easier==

=)

Not more exam but assignments

The exam was ended on Saturday....
Just immediately after exam....
I'm ON to Kampar with friend....
We always go all the way to Bidor(eat herbal duck), back Ipoh just to yamcha, Teluk Intan(to fetch Nicole) and Sabak Bernam(to celebrate yen's birthday)....
It was a crazy trip....
It was tiring too.....
But insomnia attacking me last night and make me have a bad headache this morning.
Was back to college and is time to complete those ''mountain-ed'' assignmentssS.....
Of course the feel is bad =(
Haven prepare back to study, not even have mood to complete the assignments.....

Regret to being procrastination.
Regret not to do anything but always play.
Hate to do last minutes work.
It is killing me to rush all the things at the same time....
Damn assignments for this whole week!!!!

Hope everything will be fine after this week as well as next week bonding camp for CS.