Dreams still go on

Ok I admit I'm not strong enough to maintain my achievement....
I cant make sure that I can maintain both my work and study...
Therefore I have to give up one of them...
So sorry work...
I think promoter working time is more suitable for me...

Really stressed out and tired for the entire month...
I knew I can cope with it IF I REALLY WANT
But what's in my mind now...
Is just stop work and better concentrate on study first....
Maybe I just dont wan to take the risk....
Maybe I just not strong enough to face it...
Maybe I just need so rest...
Maybe I wanted to be live like a HUMAN again...
Or no more maybe...
Now I just want to follow my mind...
Do whatever that I happy and this make my life =)
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输不起
我是输不起……
无论读书工作友情爱情……
不是不愿尝试……
而是害怕尝试了那种失败的感觉……
觉得自己是承受不起的……
那就不会勉强自己……
尽量的做自己觉得对的就行了……
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明天就要出粮了……
看着眼前的“债务”……
算了算真得所剩无几……
眼镜   手表   手机   衣服
还有周杰伦2011 演唱会门票……
几时我才能得到你们？？？！！！
 郁闷……
但是还会解决眼前的问题……
至于附属品……
应该还不是我现在这种年纪能达到的……
有剩再说吧……
===============今日话题===========================
今天和朋友谈到……
梦想与工作是不可能相提并论……
对的……
你可能找到适合的工作……
但未必是你喜欢的……
你梦寐以求的……
因为梦想在现实中是需要金钱去实现的……
没有金钱不代表没有梦想……
但是缺乏金钱的梦想……实践的机会率真的非常渺小……
九巴刀那句话还依然深刻的老在脑海……
“说出来会被嘲笑的梦想，才有实践的价值……”
我依然是个抱着无数梦想的人……
想要在这些梦，付诸于实践……
真的需要大量的时间与金钱……
尽管时间与金钱都是辅助品……
我觉得自己更加需要的是一颗坚强的心……
坚强的，不能轻易放弃的心……

~梦不会变，只要心肯坚~

Discover life

There many things that I have discovered everyday in life...
But because life is so damn busy...
I have no time to record everythings down in a short moment....

So here my discovery for the pass few days...
~I knew something...but I dont know something...

~I'm sorry for every stupid things I did before...I just know I not in mood at that moment...

~Maybe things will be gone through very fast with time...but how come my time run so slow recently?

~There are many people live like a corpse like me   x.x

~No matter how busy my life, how non-human life this is, when comes to playing I will feel alive again =D

~I just love to play...who dont like to play by the way? XD

~I edi used my time wisely...1/3 for work, 1/3 for study, 1/3 for play....oh wait...where is my rest time?

~I'm not miss my home...Just miss everything at my small village BADLY...

~Many time I appear as a positive-minded person, but sometimes I cant be very negative too....

~People always say I am the strongest person that they know...
I said: "people always enjoy the show in front of the stage, who would ever know how much effort people put in? u would never ever know a person behind the scene becoz u wouldn't have interest to discover every bit and piece of the person."

~Now I just waiting for my day to come...

Life is never ended discovery....

--to be continue--

对不起谢谢

真的觉得自己没有那个资格……
我并不值得别人为我付出什么……
我只是一个懂得对别人好……
而当别人对我好时
我是不懂得怎么去应对的人……
没有人是笨蛋……
我才是白痴……
白痴才会拒绝别人对我好……
白痴才会那么做……

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我相信缘份……
我相信时机……
但我更相信自己……



一个人的天空，依然可以很美丽……







Nothing but sharing

We're still on blogging....
Tell different story....
note down different mood...
different days.....different title....
But we all just the same....
Wanted to say something out....
Share something will or will not be known....
Especially no one to talk to....
Perhaps we dont want to talk...
This place would be the best place to go....

I have no where else to go....
But here....
Trying to share my feelings for the past few days....
Really enjoyed my raya holidays will my lovely friends...
And also my mum who cooked the delicious food for me....
I always appreciate the every moment I spend at my hometown...
Because it's rare....
And I know how hard for the working me to back home at least once a month...
Thanks everyone who have accompany me and make me smile for the last few days =)

Back to normal life at KL....
I just miss home seriously when I back here...
Maybe I just don like the rountine life here...
It never be good until have an outing with friends....
The only thing can make me happy...

I have nothing else to share....
But recently I love the quotes from the sms from my friend...
"A strong person knows how to keep their life in order.

Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm ok" with a smile.
Changes will come and hardship will over."
This is what touch my heart and I truly believe....
All hardship will come to an end....
And people who strong will get victory...

家·简单的幸福

很想把今天的感觉留住……
很久都没有试过那么的想念家的感觉……
回到来这里……
是真的有莫名兴奋感……
能够再一次吃到妈妈煮的饭时……
真的有那么一丝感动……
“我又有汤喝了……
我又有妈妈拿手的家常菜吃了……”
就是这种简单的感觉……
很温馨……
很舒服……

就可能是那么久久的一次……
我才会珍惜……
才会觉得这一切都不简单……
能够和妈妈坐在一次吃饭……
那是多么幸福的一件事……
一切都来得这么的自然……
却一点都不容易……

也趁下午的无聊时间找来阿焦、阿kok还有阿宝……
来家打打麻将……
然后晚上再约了ren，su，jy出来……
难得大家都得空……
难得大家又能聚在一起……
大家的口还是一样的贱……
还是喜欢‘仄’阿ren~
哈哈~
就这样愉快地谈着……
像往常一样……
同样地点……
同样有聊不完话题的我们……
不同的是我们的观念……
一班年轻人慢慢步入社会的观念……

回想起昨天一度失控的自己
今天可见是好很多了……
不需要倾诉什么……
可能我需要的只是无语的陪伴……
那种实在感……
就心满意足了……
好像反映了不甘寂寞的自己……
或许我就是这么缺乏安全感吧……

谢谢你们的陪伴……
谢谢那些給与过我鼓励的人……
我的生命拥有你们……
所以你们的生命也可以拥有我 =)

脆弱的倔强

不肯低头我死都不低头

你要我什么都可以就是不能给你我的尊严

生活虽然艰苦但我有骨气

不需说什么我并不需要同情可怜

是朋友的话一句：“我‘十扑’你！”什么都够了

是没错

我正在精神崩溃当中

就连肉体也慢慢陷入无法形容状态

行尸走肉

用这个词来形容自己

一点都没有错

我懂我无法做些什么

只想发泄

管我发牢骚、发噏风

什么都好

就让自己就这么的不理智一天

幼稚一天

意志消沉一天

累了

哭了

只剩下自己

不想让别人看到自己懦弱的一面

尤其是她

不会让她担心了

我告诉自己

就是这么的脆弱

但也依然倔强

你管我跌倒站不稳

就是不要你扶

站在旁边给我加油就行了

就当我是在学习走路的孩子吧

放手让我自己去尝试
跌倒然后自己爬起来

伤口还是我自己的

这些都是我自己倔强拿来的的痕迹

却让我警惕自己要靠自己不然没人能帮到你

求人不如求自己

自己选择的路，

别说跪着、爬着

无论如何都要走到终点。

moody 多愁善感的自己

I know how moody I was recently....
Sometimes can be very crazy...
Sometimes can be very calm...
Sometimes can be very sad...
Sometimes can be very happy....

Perhaps making myself happy....
Even it's pretend to be....

It's the first time I know how hard to maintain both work and study...
It's the first time I know how professional people can be in work...
It's the first time I test myself....
Taking all these...
As a challenge...
I'm still working out of it...
Try to overcome it....
I was thinking to give up when I was tired...
Thinking to just left like that without any regret....
But I know it's not worth to....
So I told myself....
I have to do it!
At least for two months...
Perhaps I dont waste my time,my money and my family and friends' trust....

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真的累了……
就在短短的几天……
想着要在学业与工作之间找到一个平衡点……
真的是一个很大的挑战……

真的很想很想证明给自己看……
证明给家人朋友看……
自己的能力……
但并不是想逞强……
只是想给自己一个机会……
去试试看了解自己到底能不能在这复杂的社会生存……
不想就这样放弃……

就算是多么微小的自己……
也希望能够靠自己生存…

家庭并不显赫……
过着简简单单的生活没什么不好……
但偶尔吃一下苦……
可能真的让自己成长一下……
就像以前那个整天吵着晚上睡不着的自己……
现在每天晚上回到家……
唯一想做的事就是冲了一个很舒服的凉……
然后躺在床上……
就这样自然的入睡……

没什么好埋怨的……
是自己选择的……
就要负责到底……
这是我对自己的承诺……