Chinese New Year is coming. Have spend a lot during these few days, I am going to be very broken for the month. But really have fun to spend time with friends. Satisfy myself with shopping,sing k and watching movies. Outing never stop and yes I am enjoyed every moment that I had with my friends.
But there are sometimes, I need some private moment for myself.
A moment to speak with my own self.
So here I am.
Thinking to change myself. To be more control when speaking, trying to be silent and listen when people is talking. And not much people can accept the way we joking. I understand but there were some time I just joke and think to have fun. But sometimes I knew it was hurt. How could I control myself for being not that hurtful? Try to keep silent was one of my tactic. However, there were also people said that was not me and scare there was something wrong with me. So I guess, why don’t I just keep to being myself? Talk whenever I want to talk and just speak my mind. Anyway, it was not a good way to be friend with people. People is so selfish that THEY JUST LIVE IN THEIR WORLD. I jealous the people who can really SPEAK and do WHATEVER THEY WANT TO DO. In fact, I think they are cool, as I cannot be one of them.
有时候 就有那么一首歌 那么一部电影
人后 有谁会懂 属于自己的过去
若不能 就放任 吧