Reading back my old blogs again.
I love to read backwards, on my own writing.
It's like I'm going through the past of my own life, again.
Realized how stupid I am to write about the silly shits, but there's some very psychological, and some philological...
I used to write a lot especially in Chinese. When Chinese philosophy is so deep and I always like to write in poem style and looks very 'deep'.
In fact I missed those days.
Those days where I could express myself easily.
Could hang out with friends for all days long without caring anything or never say tired.
I could be very spontaneous and just on for any trip.
Yes I did such things before but now that I am no longer a student but an adult who needs to bear the responsibilities to at least support my own life and not be the burden to the family anymore.
When you realized this transition might not be a good thing, that you might not want to grow up, but you cannot stay as a child forever.
Sometimes, I would say, it's still good to be an adult because we are finally afford to buy something you like and you do not need to ask for anyone's permission.
You are the only one to report to, and responsible for your own life.
以前总是很在意自己每一个blog post （现在是比较随性）
以前总是喜欢扛上一大堆责任 把自己搞得很忙很忙 过得很充实很充实
偶尔 我还是想念 那时的疯狂
所以我可以很随性的 有人约 我几乎都不会拒绝
可能 每一个转折点 都需要时间去适应