Reading back my old blogs again.
I love to read backwards, on my own writing.
It's like I'm going through the past of my own life, again.
Realized how stupid I am to write about the silly shits, but there's some very psychological, and some philological...
I used to write a lot especially in Chinese. When Chinese philosophy is so deep and I always like to write in poem style and looks very 'deep'.
In fact I missed those days.
Those days where I could express myself easily.
Could hang out with friends for all days long without caring anything or never say tired.
I could be very spontaneous and just on for any trip.
Yes I did such things before but now that I am no longer a student but an adult who needs to bear the responsibilities to at least support my own life and not be the burden to the family anymore.
When you realized this transition might not be a good thing, that you might not want to grow up, but you cannot stay as a child forever.
Sometimes, I would say, it's still good to be an adult because we are finally afford to buy something you like and you do not need to ask for anyone's permission.
You are the only one to report to, and responsible for your own life.
以前总是很在意自己每一个blog post （现在是比较随性）
很在乎每个句子 用的文字
要几个小时才能写出一篇东西
现在我看半个小时就能随便的打出一堆有的没的
总是很享受 翻阅回自己写过的东西
可以发现以前跟现在的自己有什么分别
自己又做出了什么改变
以前总是喜欢扛上一大堆责任 把自己搞得很忙很忙 过得很充实很充实
现在出来社会工作了
除了工作 就是自己与自己的对话
慢条斯理的 悠闲的过着自己的人生
偶尔 我还是想念 那时的疯狂
现在恐怕肯和你疯狂的 没有几个
工作的工作
拍拖的拍拖
散的散
能聚在一起 不是必然
所以我可以很随性的 有人约 我几乎都不会拒绝
现在总是一个人的
有时候 难免还是会觉得孤单
可能 每一个转折点 都需要时间去适应
以前我总觉得单身没什么不好
但好不容易习惯了有人陪伴
然后现在又剩下自己一个人……
很庆幸的 还有对自己不离不弃的家人
虽然在异国，但是偶尔还可以跟哥哥们吃下东西、逛下街
对了 今天是母亲节
今年不能回去和妈妈庆祝
有时候觉得妈妈总会明白
但是有时却觉得很愧疚
明明就是可以为了朋友回去 无论多累
但是说到回家却可以理所当然的说累
我们总在年轻时 喜欢往外跑
因为无论如何
我们知道
那个女人 总会在家等我们
但是 人总会老去
妈妈 又能等我们多久？……
当我在后悔的当时
岁月 也悄悄地的过去
珍惜当下
回味过去
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