I Love Art!

I’ve think of a long time to design a logo for this blog and my future design thing. And don’t get me wrong that I want to become a designer in the future. It’s just my interest to use computer, some software to draw something. R.A.M.D.O.M.L.Y. I mean. I was not talented enough to have my very-own-special-design. But I just want something to symbolize myself, as least can put at my private side such as blogger  

And I have used like a whole day to figure out how to make this thing to become better looking. And finally this it~!

With this, I can put it into my copyrighted photo, t-shirt design, and many thing else. And yes, I love peace.

I spend like a whole day play with my illustrator and also downloaded Photoshop finally.

I’ve put every photo with my copyrighted logo as watermark. Can see see that?

Oh ya forgot to talk about my Melaka one day trip. See the photo above? It is a really random and casual trip that without any packing or preparation. A road trip for two, but the whole trip for five. Again the food there always give me surprise. This time I tried nyonya dishes, durian puff, coconut milk shake, nicer sate celup, and also a very special sponge cake. Of course durian puff and coconut milk shake surprise me the most~! Even it used my half an hour just to wait for a few cups of coconut special, but I think it’s worth for it. I would certainly want to go back purposely for these food

And of course never forget the beach too   The place which can see lots of kites, can ride horse, play bubbles, and for sure take lots of stupid photo (pointing to photo above**)

A trip can always help us to forget who we are and how much stress we faced in life. But what makes after a trip cruel is that we must back to reality and face whatever shit we face in life A.G.A.I.N.

I can’t believe my week is gone just like that. Next Wednesday gonna have a big event. This blog might be updated again after that.

S.T.A.Y T.U.N.E.D for more~

心淡

第一次感觉到有那么浓浓的挫折感

没有了任何的动力

只是为了做事而做

为了 ‘责任’ 这两个字

失去了耐心、信心、 更重要的我找不到那颗我想要继续下去的心

第一次觉得自己做的东西 是那么的没有意义

意义 似乎于对自己重要的

至少要让自己开心的

我 不开心

记得我说过 我为我所做的

只要我觉得值得 我累 我开心 我都觉得没什么

但是这一次 我真的累了 又不开心

重要的是 我真的知道 是时候把重点放在什么地方了

只是一个很严重的错误

这也告诉了我 以后真的要认真考虑自己的能力

不要一味 要顾着朋友 为了自己所谓的友情

默默的付出了那么多

可能毫无回报之余 损失了时间 金钱

更心痛的是 也是我最在意的是 我在乎 未必代表别人在乎

做事做到如此 真的是心淡了

还好明天能够到马六甲散散心

希望能够拍到能描写心情的照片po在这

如果叹气能够让自己好过些

多少次 打开了 window live writer

试着回想 每一天发生过的趣事

因为一堆又一堆的事情 缠身 繁忙 劳累

结果 又把一天又一天的日记 延迟 遗忘

每天面对着空白的页面

尝试打开部落 提醒自己

又有差不多几天没有更新了

其实 身边发生的趣事 很多

但 在结束的每一天 都似乎 很平淡似的

没有什么特别的心情 想记录着

繁忙的事情 总是太多

拿着一箩有一箩 沉重的包袱

总是放不下 但是又怕太重

This is the first time I feel overwhelmed. Had took too much responsibilities and yet have limited strength and energy to continue all these.

如果叹气可以让自己好过些

我是否是不是无时无刻都想让自己好过一点呢？

Say ‘hello’ to ‘goodbye’

I’m a person who like to fly, but I know I can’t fly.

Just like I want my freedom so much.

I always want to grab it.

And it is not far away from me.

But,

there are always things to keep me down.

To keep me in a cage.

Chained my legs and so I can’t fly.

There are always things that we don’t want it to be happened, it happened.

There are always something called “out of expectation” or “unknown” that we do not want to face.

There are sometimes, it is just that cruel, we need to face it all.

As such, “to-say-a-goodbye”.

Simple phrase, easy to say it out, but hardly to get let it down.

It is just another ordinary day, an ordinary mid-night, with an extra-ordinary mood, “The other day which need to-say-goodbye”.

习惯的离别

早已习惯了离别 不要说我无情 冷淡

只是看透了一些事 与 物

没有人能紧紧抓住什么

我说 就是因为有了离别

才有期待相聚的一刻

等待可能是痛苦的

但是因为难得 才显得可贵

人不都是这样吗？

要稀有 才有人争 才会去抢

越来越少人会去想 当初为了什么去抢

没有人想要了解 而是为了争 而争

为了得到 而得到

学会珍惜 可能真的是我们人生学不完的课程

早来的中秋，

可能大家都真的要各散东西了，

可能这是大家能够在今年齐聚一堂的最后一次了，

一切都不同了，

但一样的是，彼此都还珍惜着这铁一般的友情。

不好意思动粗了，

因为这就是真实的我们 =P

那几天

It’s been a week I have spend my day at hospital with my mum who had just finish her second operation. Whatever the operation it is, I think it’s complicated enough and hardly to explain it here. I realize it’s really not easy to go back and forth from home to hospital everyday. It’s not easy to handle all household work by two hands. It’s not easy to take care of a sick people at hospital. Even most of it, mum had done it. And now only I realize, it’s never been easy to be a mother. Flash back how tough she had gone through when dad been sick and always need to check up at hospital, meanwhile she has to take care of 4 children and all household work. And me now, just taste a little bitter of it, I’ll complain about it. Ashamed. But I will try my best to take good care of her and this is what’s left I can do.

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要知道一个女人，在背后为了一个家做了多少东西、付出了多少

就要体验，就要学会去做。

只是区区的几天，

我就完全体会到那种劳累

如果不是因为这一场天注定的不幸

我可能不知道、也体会不到那个永远在家默默撑着这个家的女人

为了这个家付出了多少。

可笑的是，就算知道了又怎样？

就算体会了又怎样？

我永远都是活在她心中的小孩

尽管我已长大，尽管我也有照顾自己的能力

还是会有习惯性地依赖

依赖着那个总是在自己面前很坚强的女人

就算几许学习独立

还是需要依靠的时候

就算多么的坚强

还是需要保护的时候

所以，以后尽管我还会继续地依赖你

但是也让我有机会好好的保护你吧

买不到的欢乐

又是一个筋疲力尽的周末。这一个月一直为家里与活动来回奔跑，这得是很累。朋友问我，到底自己是为了什么要这么做？为什么要搞到自己那么得累？我说，有时候啊，我也这么地问自己，为了什么？其实为了太多东西了。有时候不是为了纯粹做而做，有时候为了朋友，为了小孩，为了社会，为了自己……付出那一点点，又在自己的能力范围，觉得对的，就去了。

并没有想太多利益与损失，如果有时间计算那么多的话，那么一直生活的定义就一直颠覆着。我告诉自己，有些东西买不到的。快乐、友谊、童真。这一切一切都是值得珍藏的回忆。绝对是无可兑换的回忆。

这次的团康欢乐营又认识一班可爱的小孩。童真，真的是有时候会让人哭笑不得。但是也因为那样的童真，让自己也顿时放下了所有琐碎的烦事，让自己尽情地融入他们，快乐打闹的过了这一天。

带着疲惫的身躯回到家，依然要帮手拍摄一个活动的宣传短片。自己可觉得了不起，但在别人的眼里，就是大忙人，没事拿事做的白痴。我没关系啊，至少我是有过快乐实在的一天，我是带着疲劳而沉睡，至少不像那种高床暖枕还要说失眠的的人，来得不一样，至少我的生活过得有意义了吧。

不要浪费青春

青春就是要拿来有意义的挥霍

如果一味觉得因某些事情阻挡自己去做某些自己想做的事，做了才算吧。

我坚信有志者，事竟成。

All about 30-Hour Famine

Finally famine had came to an end after few months of hard work and preparation. What I am going to say about this event, it was totally fun and I do learnt lots of things from others. Along the preparation is a tough period. Need to go for meeting even assignment still need to do, need to go for preparation even finals is near by, need to travel back and for from hometown to meeting even it’s holiday……But we all still put our heart on it and so the hard work all worthwhile.

I still remember the day before the event. Everyone stayed back till late night around 11+pm at college. Just to make sure all the arrangement were completed. Every single detail need to be double check and make sure everything will go smooth. I am lucky that to have such a team that everyone can work together, can bear the burden and stress together.

Decoration on the board.

Program team members

We’re still energetic even tiring for preparation

And here is the completed board

The craziest & the coolest team, PROGRAM TEAM

HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE 30-HOUR FAMINE DIY CAMP 2011

COOLEST POSE EVER! =)

The JUMP shot~!wow~!!!

Had a photo with Athena Beh~

Everything worthwhile to keep =)

And this is our break-fast~!

It is always happy to say that I have always learn different things from camp. And this famine camp, being one of the sub-committee, I do learnt more than I can say. I was able to look at a wider perspective, specifically, it is always hard that to be one of the committee that not only need to fast with the campers for more than 30 hours, still need to do many works, need to concern about the campers, campers come first, and no matter how we still need to present our energetic face even we are tired.  Some said they have grown and learnt not to waste the food after the camp, I would say, there is not only I will bring what I learnt to my life, but I will also share with my dear family and close friends, try to educate them and acknowledge all these information to everyone that we know is a more vital thing that we can do and should do.

I do feel appreciate for whoever had shown up in my life. Knew new friends again and have even stronger relationship made within the famine gang. Thanks for making my life different again.

Start doing something to change today if you know you have the ability to change.

All 3 years I had with 30-Hour Famine, what had you done?