除了缘分 我还能说些什么？

宛如一种无法言喻的缘分
在短短的几个星期
迅速的关系
很开心 与你们的日子 总是很欢乐 过得很快
朋友问：为什么你们突然间熟了起来？
我不懂。只知道和你们疯的日子，很快乐。总是过得很快。
只过了区区的一个月，但仿佛过了半年。
我只能说我喜欢这种简单。
时常一回家就能和三五个朋友出去吃吃玩玩也不错。
虽然朋友成群的聚会久久一次我觉得还不错。
但我真的很喜欢那种归宿感。
一种被人疼的感觉。
就好像吸了大麻一样上瘾。*尽管我没有吸过大麻*
我说尽管我没有情人疼，我还有一班baby们~爱我以及我爱的他们。

Of course don’t jealous old friends. Doesn’t mean that I got such new gang I will forgot those of you.
I swear I will never forget friends that had passed through every single happy and bitter moment in my life.
Friends, are just very important for me and I will do anything that I can for you if I think you are worth to. Love, for friends ♥♥

The Anniversary and…

Today  Yesterday was our 3rd Anniversary for Graduation Day since secondary school, meaning to say that I have been graduated for a total 3 years already~!! I missed those days. And my friends too.
I was merely forgot in the morning if not Ah Soong sent me the message (like every year she used to do that~). Thousand appreciate.
I was so sick that had been stressed for few days because rushing for assignment. And this is also the first time I still stay up late when I was so sick and uncomfortable—just to do the assignment. Once again this story telling us not to procrastinate but once and once again we will do the same thing and I-don’t-know-why. Another lesson learnt is that I cant really rely on others to do things and feel so unsecure and nervous without really check it by myself, unless I believe the person so much (perhaps I convince myself to). Without any choice, I can just tell myself for this time: “lesson learnt, be brilliant.”
Not forget to talk about the crazy act that mostly all of us changed our profile picture to the same at Facebook (the one I edit for my beloved friends).  

Quite a lot of us changed our profile picture after we had proposed the idea XD (only 7 can be shown but I swear its more than that~!)

And here is the conversation between us in our special group.
Cant really recognize who and who?That’s every single comment contributed by different people~! =P

给最亲爱的你们：

今天是毕业纪念日。我从没忘记过那时的感动与泪水。

心中依然有你们。而离别，仿佛象是昨日刚发生过的事。
依然守着的五年之约，至今也只剩下731天，
我也只能把剩下的那段时光抱着期待的心情，期待的下一次的相聚。 :)

Suppose to sleep early since did not get much sleep yesterday but still want to play on illustrator. I found myself cant help to stop when come across drawing and design on something. Just want and try to do the best that I can. And below was the rough design on flyers and poster for our coming CCS stage play for next year.

Comments are welcomed~

The script was quite well-written and all the performers are in well-training. Just very excited to be part of it.
So my day so far is just like that. And the sickness continue to strike if I didn’t get enough sleep today. Night world

买不到的欢乐

又是一个筋疲力尽的周末。这一个月一直为家里与活动来回奔跑，这得是很累。朋友问我，到底自己是为了什么要这么做？为什么要搞到自己那么得累？我说，有时候啊，我也这么地问自己，为了什么？其实为了太多东西了。有时候不是为了纯粹做而做，有时候为了朋友，为了小孩，为了社会，为了自己……付出那一点点，又在自己的能力范围，觉得对的，就去了。

并没有想太多利益与损失，如果有时间计算那么多的话，那么一直生活的定义就一直颠覆着。我告诉自己，有些东西买不到的。快乐、友谊、童真。这一切一切都是值得珍藏的回忆。绝对是无可兑换的回忆。

这次的团康欢乐营又认识一班可爱的小孩。童真，真的是有时候会让人哭笑不得。但是也因为那样的童真，让自己也顿时放下了所有琐碎的烦事，让自己尽情地融入他们，快乐打闹的过了这一天。

带着疲惫的身躯回到家，依然要帮手拍摄一个活动的宣传短片。自己可觉得了不起，但在别人的眼里，就是大忙人，没事拿事做的白痴。我没关系啊，至少我是有过快乐实在的一天，我是带着疲劳而沉睡，至少不像那种高床暖枕还要说失眠的的人，来得不一样，至少我的生活过得有意义了吧。

不要浪费青春

青春就是要拿来有意义的挥霍

如果一味觉得因某些事情阻挡自己去做某些自己想做的事，做了才算吧。

我坚信有志者，事竟成。

There are something ever important in my life called family & friends.

One week passed at a light speed. I am damn enjoying this holiday, though sometimes outing with family(with lots of kids) like having war, sometimes headache like hell when listen to the babies non-stop crying. I do enjoy when I had my own time out with my lovely friends, talking like an idiot to a baby that smiling at me, had precious time with family, really had bed time talking with mum, I think that’s is why I love my life here so much.

Last time gathering with my lovely secondary schoolmates was on Friday night. Around 11 people were there. A small gathering indeed, but we enjoyed it so much for the night. Chit chatting back to our old school time, viewed back our slideshow and photos, we called it memories that can never get back in University life. And I called this strong and real friendship existed in the world, in fact it’s incredibly happened in me.

“The Friendship”

~挚·友~

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Now my family turns. And nothing more important than my only MUM~

我知道有些事情只要你知道就好了。不需大肆喧嚷你有多伟大、我有多爱你之类的。越大越觉得我不需要做给别人看，只要你知道就足够了。对，只要你开心就好了=)

好不容易拉着妈妈拍了不懂第几个母亲节的第一张合照。

这是在新年拍的，最美的一张，你笑得很真、很灿烂。

心血来潮和姐姐拍的，拍了很多张，她说没有一张美，我说美不美不是重点，感觉上很warm~

很喜欢这张照片，并不是因为那讨人厌的‘衰仔’，是那流露出来的笑容，很自然、很真。

 

接下来是给两位不在家的哥哥的。

“本是同根生，相煎何太急”我不懂那些争吵有什么意义。或许大家都是自私的，就算是血脉相连，血浓于水的，大家还不是一个个只是每次发生事情就先想着自己的个体。我做不出，对于亲人，可能个性真的遗传了妈妈，很心软，没办法，自己的立场就是不喜欢为了些小事情而搞得大家不开心的，既然是这样，我宁愿自己啃了，就这样。不希望说太多，大家都是大人了，会不会想轮不到我来说，也没有资格说，有些东西是要自己去领会的。

我可以是个很简单的人。拥有简单的生活，简单的爱，来自家人、朋友就足够了。就算是很简单的一件事 我就可以笑了。你可以说我笑点很低，但我就是很容易开心的人。我知道所谓的简单 来得一点都不容易。‘没那么简单’，黄小琥都在唱。生活 有时候并不是我们想象中那么简单。尤其是牵涉到自己私人利益冲突的时候，一切都变得不简单了。

这就是简单的人类。思想简单的人类。

我只想说今晚的思绪其实有点凌乱。开心的心情  其实又很简单的被一些事情给影响了。我管不了这么多，只管做好自己的本分，一个女儿，一个妹妹，一个姑姑/阿姨，一个好朋友，什么角色都好。

不管你在想些什么、做些什么，当你看着的时候，希望能够反思一下，自己的角色，到底有没有演好？到底有没有把这人生的舞台给毁了？就算没有观众，也要尽自己的全力去做到最好，因为这是属于你自己的舞台。

The Past·And now we grown up·当我们小时候

Finally brother and his wife go back to Singapore. These few days were just plainly family days, being a good girl,not going out with friends, more or less, because have many family outing. I do enjoy to out with family too, aside from the troublesome children crying around and nothing much I could do beside eating. And yea, brother came back for wedding’s photo shooting. People said “the most beautiful moment in your life would be the day you are getting married.” I agree with that.

This will be the most beautiful moment in their life.

Precious moment in my family =]

Because of this little handsome boy here, I found back lots of my childhood photo, as well as my siblings one

He is damn cute and adorable, ESPECIALLY WHEN HE IS NOT CRYING~! LOL~

Here will be my comparison between little Justin and me.He is very much look like the baby me…

Here is ME~!!Cute?hahaha….

I am quite proud of myself when I was young

Even I know now was not that good looking,but still I ‘ve been cute.

That’s enough~!=D

Left one was my sister with her bee’s clothes XD

Right one was me, playing and biting my little buddy donald duck XD

Right one was the four sisters brothers in my family. The tallest should be my eldest brother,followed by my another brother and sister, the one who sat on the baby car was me, the youngest in the family.

In fact, I am a quite ‘ss’ person. “Syok sendiri”. This is  a the way how I improve my self-esteem.Haha. Anyway, go back to my topic. Friends that are not close to me, are very hardly to see any of this photo. But friends who are close to me, and had come to my house before, I am damn sure all these photo were not strange to you.

This is my childhood. This is what I want to blog about today. Since 20 years I living in this world. I had never realize that I had such an amazing childhood. I was not alone since I was born. I had my brothers and sister to play with me, to take care of me. I even had a doll that was same height and size, to play with me. I took lots of photo. Mum likes to keep me neat and cute in front of the camera.

I think everyone should have a moment like this before during your childhood. There must be something belongs to you and your family, to make it special in between the relationship and the bond with you and your family. As I believe so. Everyone should had a memorable childhood, no matter happy or not, just believe your parent are always trying to give everything to you as a child, even until now I believe so. It is so true if you look carefully in your life. Glance through it and never missed a moment that you had laughed and smile when your parents looked at you. Appreciate it if you missed it =)

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岁月过得如此的仓促

昔日的照片已不再光亮

照片中的小孩

如今也长大了

结婚的结婚

出外工作的工作

读书的读书

妈妈也变成婆婆，嫲嫲的说

家里添了不少人

有生气了

可不变的

我们依然是和蔼的一家人

 

灯会

去了一场灯会……位于jenjarom的东禅寺

美美的灯的确会让人心旷神怡

比起KL城市里的灯……

不同多了 有意义多了

新年 总算真正划上句号了

灯亮时，高挂的月亮真的很美

灯熄了，其实那明月还不是一样的孤寂

会不会有这样的一个夜里

每次你望上那轮明月 会想起哪个谁？

寂寥的心 就像城市里高挂的月亮一样

没有了星星的陪伴 其实还会继续的发光

归

Finally came back from Junjong,Kedah. Our mission again complete. Not perfect enough yet we have try to do our best. Really wanted to thanks everyone who have given support and helped a lot during these few days.

这次虽然这是回乡区区4天，办了活动两天。但是我已觉得身心疲惫。总觉得自己慢慢的老了。身体都有点支撑不住。却还是要继续的扮到很有活力，很尽力充沛。因为我觉得我需要扮演这个角色，就像一直打不死的蟑螂，不停的往前冲，希望能把活力与快乐带给别人。目的就是如此简单、单纯。

忙碌是值得的。我在忙碌中学习。在生活中吸取经验，成长。我觉得这样的生命很无悔。至少我疯过，我曾有过如此的岁月。别人有的，我可能没有。但是我有的，我觉得已经够了。

有时候是总是那么的不完美，看开了，你就会发觉，其实也没有什么大不了。只要你认为美，没有什么是不完美的。没有什么好挑剔，我只能说我的乐观已超出别人的想像范围。我学着去接受一切，别人认为的美与不美。

对于新家，本身是觉得自己会糟蹋屋主的房子。因为实在太美了。也忙了半天去整理。虽然还有很多事情需要解决，也有很多事等着我去解决。既然这么多，也一时间解决不来，就慢慢来吧，比较快 =)

这次回去出息的人数有点少了，但是也感谢部分忠实的aunty和小朋友们！

我可爱的家人们 =)

可爱的组员们~

♥ 在义家，和我可爱的义弟义妹们♥

珍惜与感恩 这每一刻  ♥

字 与 照

My days at Ipoh comes to an end when the Christmas bell stop ringing. I had a lovely week here although it’s short. Surprisingly, I was able to meet up with all my friends and have a chance to chat with them. Not in so depth, just a simple talk, perhaps we could feel the friendship still there.

作为一个开头，很喜欢用英文

或者喜欢 或习惯性

觉得不用华语来开头比较好

但是这重要吗？

就像在一场谈话中 每次都聊开了 像场争论

但这不是辩论 我不会争着要赢

赢 对我来说 也并不重要

我在乎素质 在乎那个意义

如果你觉得开心的话

做什么事，其实重要性只在于你自己爽不爽，开不开心~

回去了KL

看着人来人往的车站

不知人们的心情是如何

是不舍 还是期待？

对这

我已变得麻木

一个人坐在车站

等待 似乎已变成习惯

不抱着任何的心情

平淡的

静静的

可是还会期待下一次的归来

突然想起那天摸酒杯的时刻

很潇洒 很大人

因为能够坐在那 像大人般的聊起小孩子不再明白的事

再拿起酒 狠狠的喝下去

也不会像以前一样觉得酒难喝的样子

对 长大了

这也是长大的过程之一

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很多时候 都听到不同朋友对我的看法

有时候会在乎 有时候会选择不去理睬

因为这就是我自己

你可以说我串 但是你不能抹杀我惯性想置身事外的权利

有时候 真的希望不用言语 就能达到共识

也许 你觉得你懂我

但是 人是复杂的

在背后 总有很多 你不知道的

我同意你 不代表什么

只是觉得有时候你说的 也是对的

但 我认同 每个人都有自己的故事

你可以继续你的

我也在活着我的…

纯·简

刚从‘龜咯’回来……
第一次去johor~
Batu pahat是个什么地方……
我之前也只是听过而已……
‘龜咯’是在‘笨珍’里……
原本的下乡地点……
看到了那所‘龙引小学’……
真可惜我们并没有在这里留下一点的缘分……

但是我还是来了……
感觉还蛮不错……
简单的渔村……
单纯的渔民……
朴素的生活……

真的还有一点留恋那里的生活……
无拘无束……
自由自在……
最重要对着我最喜欢的海洋与天空……
很平静……
很轻松……

很喜欢那蓝蓝的天配着厚厚白白的云……
加上海浪的声音……
简直是绝配……

记得简单，也是美~

单纯的♥，也是感性的~

享受完了……

也是时候回到现实……

为了生活加油吧……

A movie for psychology students

Was watching the movie I have download last week.
I was attracted to the title of the movie apparently.
It is a story about a psychologist/a doctor/a mental therapist
who has some problems in himself
but he still want to deal with his patients' problems....

Frankly,this movie is not suitable to all psychology students....
For those who cant withstand boredom and something like "AMERICAN-LIFESTYLE-MOVIE"....just ignore it...
And for those who cant accept some BAD & RUDE WORDS
ignore it also....

However,it is good to someone who is interesting in psychology and can withstand some boredom...in addition,you must be willing to THINK....




Though it happened dramatically....
Such as all people are linked together in the movie...
And how they all put together to overcome their 'psychological problems'...
Generally,ended up with a HAPPY ENDING...

I got something after I watched this movie....
All the characters inside shared the same thing...
They bad memories and hard time
but they dont want to accept something new or even fact...

I come out with several a number of questions for myself also...
What would I feel or do if the one I love the most committed suicide and I as a psychologist cannot helped either...?
What would I feel or do if there something I cannot control in my life?
How can I able to persuade someone even me myself cannot convince myself to accept the truth?
STRESS & DEPRESSED will be the answer physically...

Life is such a fate....
And we are just a normal human...
We cannot control so much in our life as well as the live of others....
Even you cant control your live right?
When the time is come,it comes.
Why should we put so much stress and blame all the things towards ourselves?
We are actually too little and weak for that....

But you will ask,
how can we overcome those stress, depression and most importantly SADNESS?
Most people will say "JUST FORGET IT~LET IT BE~"
However, how many people are actually can do that?
Rather than forget....
Why don't we make another good and happy memories?
Covered back the sad memories...
We can make a better and happier life....

Erm...
After learning all those CRITICAL THINKING SKILLS~
we should apply it right?xp
So,be a good critical thinker...
Above is just my own opinion on the movie
and made some comment after I watched it...
No offenses ya~