Another visit to orphanage

So here is my day. Pay a visit to Agathian Shelter located at PJ area due to our LLS group project. Yes we’re having so much fun there. And I think our group was quite a big success since we are so much connected to each other as we always have face-to-face meeting.

Personally I think this is what group work I am searching for in a GROUP ASSIGNMENT. Everyone is putting effort and willing to work together to make the achievement. I love my groupmates indeed. We were not solely group for the report and simply go for 4 hours volunteers work but we did planned and organized all the things, because we did want to do something to the children.

Talking about the children, all I could say is tired-able. To get them to listen to you, and remember most of their name were my BIG trouble. It’s really hard to get to know each of them within few hours. Anyway, as long as they’re having fun. I think this would be the best thing we could achieved.

They are adorable indeed.

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散·文

（一）一句能表达现在心情的歌词。

“沒有想法 有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個留言安慰不了 心裡的遺憾”—— 丁当《一半》

有时候几句歌词，就能表达到自己的心情。我不懂为何还要写那么多去修饰。有时候是想法，是心情。在人前总是保持沉默，沉默并不代表没有意见，没有想法。有时候沉默，只是不想懂那么多，而为了那些有的没的而出现的那种想法，浪费着时间、岁月。

（二）距离，就是那么耐人寻味。

若近若远，似有似无。那么的虚幻，有时候保持距离，设有界限，可能对大家比较好。

（三）世俗

讨厌世俗的虚伪，但是你无法不承认虚伪就是定律，是不伤害别人至于还能保护自己的行为。我懂，我明白，就算站在腐败的社会，也要鹤立鸡群，拥有独立的思想与行动。

（四）末日

可不可能什么都不在乎，就算世界真的末日，那就打开双臂迎接吧。就在末日之际，拥有遗憾，那又怎样？总是有无能为力的时候，放开、看开，可能会让自己好过点吧。

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1) Don’t tell me what life should be, I already knew what it is.

2) Maybe you are right, when I say this, I stand on your perspective; I have my own thoughts too, can’t people just look at different perspectives just like I do respect your thoughts too?

3) I don’t know what’s in your world, maybe it’s just simple as that, perhaps I just don’t want to understand.

4) Stay in peace for everything. JUST FOR PEACE.

Just live for it

Not really remember what I was writing for the previous post which I have already lost it. Yes I have wrote something few days ago but I did not post and now I found it was lost. Trying to search back in my memory, maybe is about my busy life and how I cope with the stress with tones of assignments, COS(stands for Community Outreach Service, which I always mention in my blog) and also CCS(Chinese Culture Society, a new society that I joined at HELP, which is also Chinese based) activities.

Alright, what I mean busy is that, regardless of usual school time, I will have meeting for every week, different assignments to pass up nearly every Friday except this next week, need to spend at least one day per week for my part time job, need to get some outing with my friends to maintain friendship…bla bla bla… So you can see normally I can update my blog everyday, at least one post per day or two day, but now I totally have not enough time to write my thoughts.

However, I want to say that I am enjoying what I am or was doing. I never regret what I’ve joined or took part in. This is just part of my life. Do whatever you like, make your life YOUR LIFE.

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I knew many people are crazy and afraid of “THE END OF THE WORLD” when Japan got 8.9 earthquake and tsunami recently. Everyone just freak out~ Everyone is afraid of death and scare the bad thing will happen to them. I don’t know how can I face this so peacefully and don’t ask me why. I am not that cold-blooded and say, I AM CONCERN ABOUT LIFE. Frankly, it doesn’t really happen on me and I don’t know what will I react if it really happen to me. I can say I have no sense of worry or tension when face to death, but I am a coward if you ask me to kill myself or jumping down from a building. This is what I can say.

What I posted for my status: “Everyday, there were some people die, but why when there was only a big traumatic event, people only realize we should grateful for life or have to pray hard for the unfortunate people? I thought we should have this kind of thinking no matter how the world is or will be. Incept this thinking as the very basic principle in your everyday life, when the day come, maybe you can face the death peacefully.”  This is what I want to tell the people whoever scare or believe in ‘2012’ or ‘end of the world’, live as what you live in. What are you freaking out for? There is a probability that you are going to die for the next second. WHO KNOWS? Could you tell me when you are going to die, unless you end your life yourselves? Don’t you realize people are just helpless whenever things are out of control? You could pray hard or even harder for the one who suffered from the traumatic event, but what’s left you can actually do to help them? Do something meaningful man~ Participate in donation, get into physical help, that is what they needed. Do as what you said.

And next what I want to sum up is that, JUST LIVE IN YOU LIFE. Make it meaningful as you live in it. You can pray hard for whatever bad things never happen to you and just live in your world. But trust me you gonna hold on a very powerful principle in life, that is “LIVE FOR TODAY AS THERE WAS NO TOMORROW.” You never know whether you have ‘tomorrow’.

If you ask me what is the most powerful thing in the world, I will say “human mind”. A piece of thought can make anything different. If I could control mind, I would not manipulate it, I will influence it and let it be what it should be.  

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你问我青春是什么？青春就是做你想做的，活在当下！

很想在年轻的时候，大干一场。

年少轻狂，忙碌就是你的岁月，至少汗水是流在有意义的事情上！

我没有钱，但青春就是我的本钱，我痛快的玩过、疯过，疯狂青春，此生无憾！

对于人生的大道理，我只略懂。但是我对自己人生的意义，有一定的原则，我有自己一套的想法，可能不是人人都受用，接受与否，是要经过你自己的思想道路。

做你自己认为对的事，可能是错误的，可能会后悔的，但如果每一事都质疑，你就不用前进了……

Bonding camp ♥ COS

Went to bonding camp at Janda Baik again~ For HELP Community Outreach Service (COS).

The difference for this time, I was not the camper or participants or the one who played by the seniors anymore.

This year, I, as a senior, part of committee and organizer, grab the chance to play all my beloved and adorable juniors (which some are elder than me but I still can play them on my fingertips~!muahaha~)

They are cute indeed. Talented and respectful. Must can do much more better than us. I know you all can =)

Committee can also be adorable 

The 6th batch HELP COS

The whole group 5th x 6th

Lunch time, nice committee only eat after them =)

Yeah~!It was a big success! Good luck to you guys =)

Talking about my days, were not so good. Totally not enough sleep. For rushing procrastinated assignments and obviously cant sleep as a organizer in the camp. Fed up for everything. So I didn’t really have time to update my blog before or after the camp. Anyway, I think it was a good memory for the 6th batch, not excluded us, as part of it.

In a nutshell, I am totally require lots lots of sleep and rest for the energy and attention that I used over a week. Chiao and Nitez =)

Midnight thought

“The moment you know how cruel life is, the reality is not that hard to accept anymore.”  Actually I no need to quote it as it is originally written by me. Perhaps I need to credit myself.

I wrote this in my MSN personal message. Wanted to say that life is just like that, sometimes cruel, sometimes so real that we need to take or accept all the desirable or non-desirable facts. “Life is just a process.” Saw a video and this is the phrase.

I agree with it and know what this mean during my childhood. I experience it, more than what other people knows for now. I mature very early that you cant imagine that the problems about life, I have already figured out since I was 14-15 years old. It was not come naturally, all the thoughts. It came with experiences. I understand what is life about as I saw in and out of lives, considered all the closest people in my life. I never review about it doesn’t mean that I did not care. I do care when people asking about my father. I do jealous when people talk how good their father are. I do feel touch when I saw a father play happily with his children. I do feel abnormal since I live in an incomplete family for more than 8 years. Who knows mother do sad do cry when she was alone at home, missing her dead husband and far apart daughter and sons. I do understand it all.

Now I do feel to write about the essay question about the challenge being a psychology student is know too much and understand too much about human being. The saddest part was you know how the closest person felt, but you cant do a thing to help. Perhaps it is just learned helplessness.

As in now, helpless, struggling on assignment that will due soon. I will still act relax and smile and laugh to let others know I am strong and able to deal with my own problem. I am such a good actor and will do my best in front of the stage. But this is my back stage. This is the only places that I put down my character as an actor and BE MYSELF.

It’s just that all I wanted to say for tonight, this midnight perhaps. Smile as you can breath for today, at this moment, you’re not die yet.

Fact

Sometimes I cant just make up my mind on something. A decision. An opinion. 

I wish I could have my concentration, back to do things that I have to do.

Nothing much I wanted to say, I need courage, I need energy, I need time, to complete whatever written and highlighted in my schedule.

I know that I need to put more effort on doing something, even more than others, since I am not a genius nor lucky person. but somehow I am being stubborn on some kind of fair or unfair thinking.

Being forceful, something need to be done, THAT MUST BE DONE!

Cruel life, not matter how things to be done, imperfect or perfect, done before the deadline, IT’S RULE.

Not only you are the one who feel the disappointment, please put your legs in my shoes too. I will be the most disappointed person and saddest person in the world because IT’S MATTER ME.

No one is able to solve your problem, even a Psychologist only can HELP you to solve your problem. Help as in guidance, opinion, options. You solve your own problems.

I am so damn lack of time to do all things at the same time. Assignments, examination, meeting for ideas, camp… Crucial period, I know I will get through this. Persistence-heart-training-season.

*For friends who have troubles or problems as well, I suggest you to take a deep breath and hold on a strong believe that you can do it, with your bare hand or whatever along, sometimes troubles just happen to be solved =)

Update for short

The time spending for fun was always gone too fast. It’s just always not enough. If you ask me “Are you regret for coming back but not doing your revision for exam and assignment that will due soon?” I will say yes to certain extend, frankly, I felt more guilty to myself especially the time I need to face my result. But there is a big NO as I got a chance to see my little new born nephew, and also hang out with my friends, getting some time for fun like this is always not easy. I could say I might lose something about grades, about marks, but I get my relationship with family and friends. Perhaps I think this will be the most important thing for me in life. Life just getting so rush until you miss something, you will realize you will just lose it forever and it will never come back.

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总觉得 家  是幸福的源头

总觉得很多事情要完成 但是却 少了动力 多了阻碍

总觉得 要习惯 要适应 自己一个人

总觉得 有些事 是时候放下了 因为渐渐发觉不重要了

总是觉得和你们在一起   最自在

晚了 完了 故事还是会继续的

累了 睡了 我们会好好的 =)

语·思

我可以欺骗自己不要喜欢一个人，但是我不可以欺骗别人说我喜欢他。

如果那就是爱，对不起，我觉得有点肤浅。

我不觉得自己有资格说些什么，我不是你，就像你也不懂我在想什么一样。

Fake a smile is easy, how to fake it without the knowledge of others is a tactic.

就像平静的湖水也有泛起涟漪的时候   很多事都变成正常

It is interesting to study human mind, but it reflected how funny human is, have such an interest to study and discover own species. even make so much explanation about their own behaviors.

给予尊重    是希望能得到同等的尊重。

感受 不用言语的 不用眼神的 这是心灵上的沟通

青春 我都把它花在有意义的活动 很激动的说

沉默 是几番静思 是几番忧郁 是几番神秘

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很喜欢事无忌惮的写 是思想 是言语 表达的是一句又一句看是有关联或没有关联的文字

我实在无法表达 我又多么的喜爱 玩弄文字与文字之间 那一段细腻的情感 是那么的美丽 那么的有意思

可能有那么的一天 能把这些文句都编成书 那是梦想