坚强它迷了路

今晚凌乱的思绪 复杂的心情
又把自己带到来了这里
所谓的复杂
是因为最近自己的遭遇
养了接近10年的狗狗，那么突然的离开
除了惋惜，欲是不舍。
我知道自己不是一个很好的狗主人，
我只希望它下一辈子能够有更好的生活，
在另外一个我看不到你的世界，
好好的……

最近的自己
很眼浅
很懦弱
遇到一些不开心的事就很容易掉眼泪
我很希望找回那个坚强的自己……

If I were a sunny doll

It’s been a while and I found it’s really hard for me to put something down easily. Especially something that had influence my mood. Mood swinging around and I become lost control, for sometimes, but recently, quite frequent.

Sometimes I just confuse about life. To please others or to please myself? Yes. Many said, of course we must live to please ourselves! Just be yourself. In fact, did you? or… can you? Can you live selfishly just to please yourself without caring for others? Frankly, life is not just about you. It’s always about you…and others. Of course we could not please everyone in life. For sometimes, we failed. We failed to please some and we might feel tired to please others in life, at certain point of time. Contradiction comes in play. At first we think, why we want to please others always when we are not feeling to or forced to? But we do actually care what may happened to others, because we just care-on-the-person-that-we-care-about. Just because we care, it may hurt, when comes to disappointment or we failed to please them. Not trying to evoke any sad or emotional post for today, it’s just a piece of thought from me today.

 

Icantpleaseeveryonejustlikethesesunnydollsdid.

But I will try my best to make you smile

很情绪化的一天

很不喜欢今天
那样的自己
完全不受控制
平常很理智的自己
去了哪里？
可能是不够睡
玩得太疯
还是我太久没有那样的情绪了？

我不知道
说到底
我错了
我从来对自己的做错的事 都敢做敢认
这一次我受惊了
一大早不够睡已经很恨闹情绪了
然后被骂了
我才反省
对与错 我无法认知
对于这些事 一向都是很主观的
但是别人认为我错了 我就有质疑自己的理由
可能我真的玩大了
一声对不起也好像发不起作用了
也是我第一次感到如此的难过
因为我不会表达自己
我只会说对不起但我不会哄人
我更不会伪装不知道或猜测别人需要什么
我是个直肠直肚的人 有什么不爽可以直接跟我说
只要不过分 我什么都可以做
只要你是我在乎的朋友

我很讨厌那样在乎朋友的自己
可以为了一件事不开心了整天
庆幸的是我又更加肯定了关心自己的人
很感谢很感谢那些特地来慰问的朋友
陪在我身边辅导我的朋友
不在我身边但依然很关心我的朋友
今天那些眼泪 除了为伤心而流 也是感动而流的

我想对那些了解我的人说
你们是我剩余最信任的人了……
因为你们的关心、你们的支持
让我觉得很温暖
而那份余温会存在着心里 很久 很久……

Great weekend

It’s a concert year? I’ve been watching two concert in two months. Lucky me. One with plan, one without plan. And both concert are same AWESOME~! I cant really compare Avril with Leehom because one rock star one pop star. They have their ways in attracting their fans to stand on their fence. And I’m stand on my own fence. It’s been a relaxing week without assignment due dates or exam. But people said it’s always quiet and looks calm before the rain storm comes. I do believe that. Because I will be damn busy two weeks later until the end of this semester. And I will be going to Year 3. O.M.G, I cant believe that! And yes I am old >.<

Let’s have a look on the photo. A picture is worth a thousand words.

Saturday night: Leehom’s concert

Thank you my friend stephy woo called me out many times when I was sleeping and get me this free ticket XD

Sunday: Sungai Congkak one day trip.

With awesome people.

Happy and lovely weekend