这一年 又在电脑面前默默的倒数自己的生日
不同的是 今年 陪伴着自己的并不是assignment
因为想放松一下自己 不是明天due date
难得今年能在半夜发文
想说 今年的愿望 其实也跟往年差不多
只是想平淡知足的过着自己想要的生活
想要的东西 总是有很多
但是总不能一时间 能够满足的
就好像我要一直提醒自己 要感恩 要知足
去面对每一天生活
我想要的 其实并不多
简单就好过 =)
前几天 我做了一件搞笑的事
也是自己想做的实验
在Facebook保密了自己的生日
看下到底有多少个人记得自己的生日
到底有多少个真心祝福的人
结果我看明天才能懂
但是看刚刚的情况来讲
我很幸运 因为我的好朋友都记得
谢谢你们，特别感谢美燕每次都是最早的、也是最有心的
我很喜欢那封message，很特别、很感动
我总觉得多少不重要 有心就好了
还有前几个礼拜 与前几天的提前生日会
你们的心意 我都收到了
只是想再一次 真心 诚恳的 跟你们说一句
谢谢 =)
今天替亲爱的健芳庆祝生日，很简单，很开心
就像聚会，就像真的很久不见的老朋友，就像一家人
这也是为什么坚决觉得自己没有后悔是下乡团的一分子的原因
很有爱，很有感情的一个团体
我在里面可能找不到那种中学的青涩友情，
但却在里头感受到人在异乡的温暖与爱♥
跟朋友庆祝生日当然需要
人家说，或每个人都认为，
庆祝生日，是要看心的，就要验证你们的感情深厚度。
虽然自己有时候也会那么认为，但是我其实是一个很传统的人。
认为生日，就应该+必须要有家人。
能回家庆祝，是自己不想错过的事。
就算不能在正日，也至少，在那个月，要回家和妈妈吃顿饭。
这是对自己很重要的原则。对妈妈的尊敬。
这个生命，得来不易，想每次生日都那么提醒自己。
我不是一个很会做人的人
我喜欢恶搞那些想为我庆生的朋友
也只有一次，那么唯一的一次受骗了
发誓自己不会再被骗！XD
自己是个喜欢制造惊喜的人
可以说习惯了惊喜，所以对于‘惊喜’，
也可能是‘惊’，多过于‘喜’罢了。
但是今天，很享受，因为成功制造惊喜。
其实，快乐可以很简单。
但并不是每个人都能明白
那简单的快乐。
我要的快乐，也只不过是你的快乐 =)
Just feel to evoke something very meaningful and quite true from Dr.Hera—our Biopsychology lecturer.
She said, when the animal fight for their food or kill others animal for food, we will think it is normal. But when comes to human, if we kill somebody because we want something from he/she, we are wrong.
Legally speaking, if you talk to a lawyer, the answer will be: “Because we are human being, we have rules and regulation and so called LAW to restraint our behaviors.” Agree. To certain extend. But as a psychology student, we will tend to argue just between MORAL vs. Justices.
Did not try to argue on this statement, but I was interesting to point out something very important but we always taken for granted—THE MINDSET.
We are quite a very special creature that thinks we are so special and different, especially from other ‘species’, but dint we all are animal for god sake? We think that we are so special just because we had that brain that enable ‘thinking’. But who says and judge that animal did not had a brain to think at all? To certain extend, they think too, and maybe in our world they were so stupid than us, but it might, I mean in their world, the one in front of them (the human) is just a fool. Just because they did not speak, they did not express themselves, we judge them, we put them into category, we did everything and put into a ‘box’, and this is what I called the “Mindset”.
A mindset I want to define here is the box( yes I meant a box, which is small enough to keep yourself inside), that we always want to keep something in ourselves, our life, some principles, some rules, some judgment, anything that we think that is right, and that, is our very magnificent HUMAN MIND.
Interesting didn’t we? We all own a box. Inside the box we know what we kept, it’s either we open it, to let more things to go in, or close it, it is your own choice. But I will say, I would like to borrow the closed box from others, slowly open it and get something from it, didn’t it make life more easy?More interesting?
Grasp yourself a moment. To.think.out.of.the.box.
题外话之最近生活：
回到来KL一个礼拜就忙足一个礼拜。Assignment，test统统给我杀上门来。想说就算几忙得自己，其实还是会有机会给自己放轻松，但只是很快的，轻松完了，就要马上回到紧绷状态，真的是怕自己的柔韧度没有那么耐。感觉上没有时间发呆，发呆了会愧疚，因为白白浪费了几分钟去放空。压力，每个人都有。只是看你自己到底怎么去应付、与面对。至于未解决，生活还是要过。现在趁年轻，冲吧！
一阵莫名的感触涌上头来。
原本以为不会有太大的感触，以为只会有不一样的感觉。
与中学朋友再一次看了《那些年》，看完过后，冲动的买了星期六的票，想和另外一班朋友再看。
其实没有任何太过特别的感受，比想象中良好。
只是在结束分享后，回到家，心情沉淀下来时，鼻酸了，眼眶突然一阵涩涩的。我说我从不后悔那些年拒绝感情的日子，有一半是真，一半是假的。如果那些年，我从不理智，我从不成熟，懵懵懂懂的谈上一场恋爱，可能现在的爱情观可能会不一样。如果回到那些年，我从不羞涩，从不胆怯，勇敢的毫不犹豫地做出一些所谓幼稚的事，可能现在就有一些不一样幼稚的回忆。
我从不敢想象，如果回到那些年，让我有机会回到那些年……我会如何从新选择。但是人生总有会有那一些些的遗憾不是吗？我不敢很肯定地说我从不后悔，但是现在的我谈不上后悔，也不能如此地说。毕竟人的经历，各有不同。
那些年，我从不真正面对自己的感情。说我逃避，说我以学业为重，我只能说我是自私的。不想为了一些有的没的，伤害别人或伤害到自己。内心的刺痛比任何一切看得见的伤口更严重、更可怕。知道自己承受不了就干脆选择不要去爱上任何一个人。我称之为洒脱。可能我是傻的，但恋爱的人是不是更傻？
你说就算傻，就算痛，也总算爱过。我没有爱过，但我却了解痛。矛盾。
是扯远了，只因这一刻的心情，很饿，睡不着觉。
曾经有人说过：单身久了，其实也想要有个人来依靠。
有那么样想过，但是却不想随便，因为自己对于某一些东西还是会执着，还是会想要完美的回忆。
会一直试着保护着自己所坚持的一切，就算到最后还是徒劳无功，也总算对自己负责了。
Today was a special and relax reunion with old school friends. We finally had our very typical Ipoh uncle and aunty lifestyle in this early morning. After our dim sum session in the early morning, we persuade ah soong to skip her intern work and had a walk to D.R. Park—a very historical place for me during my childhood.
It’s been many years I did not come to this place and what is left here are all my childhood memories. I just remember this place, was the place where my family spend our weekend, while my father was still around. Mum used to bring all of us to dapao dim sum and we will have our breakfast inside the car, after that we will play around the park. We also took lots of photo with my other father-side relatives as old photo albums were still kept until now.
It had changed a lot. Imagine I was like more than 10 years not step inside the park. We saw there was rubbish around and the environment was not that clean anymore. Maybe when comes to children, we did not really pay so much attention to some particulars and as children, we did not even realize this place was not that big.
This place is where we all back to childhood love to play with. This playground used to be so BIG to me, when I was 5 I think. Not anymore now……
After the walk, we went to eat the most famous toufu fa+ soya—namely BAK BAK (white white for direct translate). Still, we are like grown up acting like a kid. 
Back then, it is always crazy and relax to be with my lovely friends. Talking about the past, joking around, and talk about something nonsense… We are just so great with that.
There will be since a couple of days I will be here luckily.
And this is the most usual thing that I will do when I come back here—haircut.
Now this is a very short one, for the fringe~!!!I really not used to it and cant really accept it. Though have to >.<
Not feeling to dye my hair during this period, and might wait until my brother’s wedding in December.
And yes I had shopped for few days and hunted quite a few new clothes. It is cheap btw~!!!
And this is another one I wore on my sister’s birthday celebration. And I still have two more waiting for another special day to be wore.
Back to Ipoh,
I am a dater
I am an out-goer
I am a baby sitter
I am a bad daughter
I am not a good aunt
I am not a good friend
I am a bad student
I am so damn lazy.
I just want my life to run in a slow pace like a soft melody in a song.
I just live in my way.
It is just here, I can live in this way and to be myself.
童真，在我们脸上是曾经是那么轻而易举的显出，可惜现在却遥不可及。
