31.12.12

2012 to 2013

Hi here I am posting the last blog for this year 2012.

2012 is a challenge year for me.

My degree third year and I am going to end my University life next year and a new page of life will be coming soon. Real soon.

Let’s flash back what I had done in the past 12 months in 2012.

What I can categorized this year is before and after I meet her.

Before I meet her, I was busy with my life full of events and what I gained is those joyful memories and wonderful experiences with wonderful people. This is the earlier months in 2012.

In the mid 2012, my life changed as I met her.

This wonderful girl in my life, who is so important to me and I could not barely think how could I live without her.

We began like most couple did. Flirting over phones, social platforms and go out in group for around 2months.

And finally I spoke it out with full of bravery in my life, that I never did. We get together.

In these 8 months I had been with her, just like the other couples did, we did argue, we did have fun, we did cry, we did laugh, we did everything that show how much we love others. We hate each other weaknesses, coward-ness, stupidity, but we love those sweet deeds, romance and surprises. It’s all LOVE.

And yes finally I realized what my friends had told me before, what I am before I fall in love and who I am now after I fall in love, could be different. I think this could be what I had learned the most in love. We need to take care of the other’s feelings.

I couldn’t be selfish anymore as I what did before, care-free for everything. But now I have to bear with whatever feelings that happened to her, or related to her. I have to remember that I am no longer an only person but I could have done many things that related to her.

2012, is not a world end year. But a year full of love for me.

My new year wish is just hope we could still stay together happily.

Hope we got a peaceful year ahead. With full of love, joy and fun Winking smile

Happy New Year Everyone Party smile

20.12.12

如果还有明天

如果还有明天

我想地球上会有多半数人开心,

又多半数人伤心

开心,因为还可以活在世界上

开心,因为自己不相信的语言被打破了

伤心,因为还要面对接下来的考试

伤心,因为还要面对接下来的难题……

 

其实我自己本身真的对世界末日没有什么感觉。

没有伤感,没有快感。

因为日子还是要过,无论明天过得如何。

我不相信有世界末日。

如果有世界末日的那一天,我相信我自己也不会存在。

如果明天就是世界末日,那么接下来的这些话,

这篇东西,这个部落格,还有着世界上的一切……

都变得毫无意义……

 

如果你问我明天是世界末日的话,我会做什么?

要做的东西真的做不完。

倒不如好好把握时间,做完自己应该做的东西。

至少明天没有世界末日的话,我还要继续生活。

然后花点时间抱一抱自己认为重要的人,

做自己想做而认为做不够的事。

花几秒钟深呼吸,感受一下还活着的感觉……

 

我对明天没有期许。

我只想好好的活着,这一刻。

18.12.12

与成熟的距离

突然觉得自己与成熟的距离还有很远

以前总是觉得自己很成熟 很有想法似的

我总以为 自己好像经历很多东西似的

我总以为 自己好像过了大半人生似的

我总以为 自己很聪明

结果我也只不过是烂聪明

其实自己也是生活在框框中

 

我无法去取悦生命中的每一个人

我记性不好

要整天把自己想要做到的事情、要改变的事情写下

去提醒自己 要怎么去做人

去做别人喜欢的自己

但是却很挣扎的觉得为什么我不可以做自己喜欢做的自己?

别人要的我:

要成熟

要读好书

要快快毕业找工养家

要学会做每件事前想一下别人

我羡慕 我尊敬

那些可以在台上为了自己梦想表演的人

那些不计较钱为社会服务的人

那些可以在大草原努力奔放的动物

那些可以自由做喜欢的东西与自己的人们……

 

结论:

我与成熟的距离,还有很远。

我与做自己的距离,也很远。

我也其实只有21岁。而以。