30.5.10

NCSM-->STAND UP FOR CANCER!!!

Just back from a camp at Bukit Jalil...
It's a camp organized by National Cancer Society Malaysia(NCSM)...
A kind of big event to raise cancer awareness, cheer for the survivors, and fight against cancer among cancer victims and non-cancer people...
I went with my COS seniors....
They all are really nice and fun =)

Initially I thought this was a talk about cancer and sharing with the patients....
When we arrived there....
We only realized it was not a talk but more like a fun fair or party or concert to raise fund for the victims...
Raining made the event moody and everyone walked along the mud path....
It's really disgusting and dirty to walk on it....
Anyway, we still walking as the event going on....
(If not we will like doing nothing there...)
The event going on with performances, dance and sing...
All people played and dance and sing together as ONE MALAYSIA really works....=P
I really enjoy the moment when we all sing and dance together crazily regarding race or anything else...
We just have fun and do whatever we want....
The stage light continuing lighting until 2 midnight....
You cant imagine that we had dance over and over again from about 8pm to 2am...
We only took rest beside the stage and chat a lot.....

Surprisingly, I din sleep for the whole night and sat at the chair until 7 in the morning....
The stage lighted up again...
And everyone dance in front of the stage again....
We left the stadium about 10am and having our breakfast...
I can only show exhausted and tired face....
Reached condo about 1pm....
Din take rest yet but taking a refreshable shower
also washing my dirty shoes and clothes....
Dunno where got the energy and mood suddenly....
I had done some household works....
My mood just come and told me to do so....

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Things that I have learned and gained :
Talk more with my COS seniors and getting close to them =)
Manpower is really AMAZING, we could fight with anything with this POWER!
NO matter how tough the life is, we still need to have fun and enjoyed it. Smile =)
Life could be taken away easily, but spirit could never be taken!
Everyone needs LOVE, be kind to everyone =)

23.5.10

♥Give them love♥

Went to an orphanage today with my COS friends....
It's a famous and kinda big orphanage near Kelana Jaya....
The orphans there mostly with metal problem or some kind of disability....

When I'm first in there....
I felt a bit awkward becoz I dunno what I should do there...
We all stand there looking at them but doing nothing...
I just suddenly felt "I'm useless and nothing I could do to help them..."
As a healthy human being...
I appreciate and grateful for what I have...
But cant withstand to do nothing but look at them...
After a while...
Thank god we finally have some interaction and activities with them....
We all have a whale of time there...

I realize our power is really limited...
But what we could give them is just "LOVE"
Entertain them with true smile and care....
When we saw their smile....
We have make a change....

What we searching so much for in life...
Is just happiness...
We have do our best to let them feel it...
This is what we could do at the moment...
Do what we could do...
Help as we are ABLE to help....

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Cant really imagine how could I survive in that situation...
And dunno what in their mind to keep them alive...
Maybe just a little joyful they are searching in their live...
Feel them
Care them
Love them

A video from 30 hour famine this year...
Hope everyone can join =)

My long post

My daily life is full of meeting recently....
Always meeting meeting and meeting....
I not really get bored from this....
But just feeling tired....
And everytime after meeting....
We sure go for dinner or whatever crazy did...

Tonight went out again after meeting....
Thinking to back to my comfortable room to rest...
Becoz my headache was killing me...>.<
But still following them to go for dinner....
Not my dinner but LOOKING AT THEM EATING DINNER....
Bee Giek,Kin Fong and Jun Wei really a DURIAN lover....
All can eat i-dunno-how-many biji durian...
But I'm pretty sure that they like it so much...
After that we go "QU TAIPEI" somemore....
DS will be having his dinner there...
I really want to tell that the other 3 have a big stomach...
Order somemore food and eat there....
While my stomach is full with water and din get appetite on anything else...
After the dinner, they need to go and sing K....
Walao eh~
I dont wan the 2nd time edi...
It's crazy and I have no mood and energy for that...

Anyway...
I felt so sorry to not join them...
Because it's really fun to be with them....
Three of them are really a good story teller...
Make DS and me having so much fun while listening to them...
Hope they enjoy their K-ing session...

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Just knew that my blog have over 400 blogpost...
Over the two years....
I have written so much about my life and feelings in this blog....
It's all about memories....
No matter good or bad...
Happiness or sadness...
It's still a part of my life....
Never neglect my feelings....
Always follow my feelings....
This the principle of my life....
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觉得这篇很想写华语……
很久很久没有写了……
有点遗忘了写华语的感觉……
但是还是它最能表达自己……

看回了以前的一切……
傻傻、青涩的自己……
从文章里……
看到了天真……
看到了无知……
也看到了自己单纯的为了一些东西的执著……
我曾经热爱写作……
试着在字里行间找回自己……
写诗抒发情绪……
写小说证明自己的实力……
但渐渐的我发觉那样的自己有些幼稚……
时间也没那么多……
所以也没有写了……

如今……
突然想写……
但也找不回当初的感觉了……
零碎的字句……
零碎的灵感……
或许此刻的心情不搭……
感觉不恰……

寻找回忆……
希望会出现在梦里……

21.5.10

Fun thing is silly

It's a crazy night for yesterday....
Or more accurately today....
Went for practicing hand gestures(more like dance)
purposely for the performance that will be done on this Sunday at the orphanage....
It's extremely exhausted to dance after class...
After that went to SS2 for dinner...
They pops out an idea which go to Cheras Taman Connaught pasar malam....
Ok...On for this idea as I think it's not crazy enough....
After a long walk there....
They pops out another idea which I think it is extremely fun but mad and silly enough...
Back to One U sing K....
It's already 12am when we prepared to get back to PJ...
And we sang until 4 in the morning....
I was being hyperactive, steaming....
At the same time I felt headache and sleepy because of 6.6% alcohol drink I think...

I din fall sleep easily after I back....
The most terrible thing is I have to wake up at 9am for my 10am class....
The after all effect is tired and kinda dehydrated....
Hopefully my class ended at 3pm...
Can back home and have a long nap....

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The first week for my degree class just pass like this...
Feeling free but yet busy for other event especially COS stuffs....
Getting closer and closer to the date of xia xiang...
Pray that we could finish everything before we go there...

18.5.10

Practicing to be a PSY student

The first class for the brand new day in degree of psychology was fun =)
I know Ms Winnie talking like a machine gun....
She kinda weird in her behaviour....
Likes to give pop quiz and shock us on the first day...
Likes us to stick with her rules...
Anyway...
I think she is really awesome....
Can talk continuously 3 hours...
Fluent English with special tone...
Mixed with her humour in the class....
I just having so much fun in her class....
Maybe it just the beginning....
Who knows what will happen next?

I'm considering a lot when making choices between MC100 and PSY113....
I've change my mind to PSY113 when MC100 group A is not more....
And messed up with my SPM cert and financial thingy...
Just feeling frustrated when so many things need to settle suddenly....
At last...
I have chosen MC100 and successfully in group A...
With my all dear friends =)
Maybe the timetable is sucks....
Or be optimistically...
It just not that perfect....
Or we just need to suffer for 5 weeks....
No big deal....
(Just making myself to be more optimistic =))

It is a good beginning...
Short sem is a really short period...
Going to be very busy in this few weeks....
Schooling....COS stuffs....
Going to xia xiang in 3 weeks time!!!!
Have to put lots of effort on it!!!
Cheer up all COS members!
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I have accidentally found out Jay exposed new album....
It's relax and lovely to listen to his song  ♥♥♥♥
No matter how the others talk about him....
I just ♥ his song =)

14.5.10

Abnormal = normal

I've reached my degree finally....
Foundation was really a honey moon for me....
I was playing rather than studying....
Not suffering but enjoying....

Sure I dont hope that it will happen in my degree....
Not a child anymore....
No more "foundation" for me to pre-pare...
Challenges are always there for me and it will attack me without any preparation...
I am the one who have to take responsible for everything that I've done....
Or even pay for the consequence if I have done wrong....

The CGPA for the scholarship is really hard to achieve....
Maybe it's crazy to set it as a target....
But who cares???
Like Dr.Goh said....
It might be crazy but I think something was gone wrong for every psy students....XD
Even the lecturer....
We like to do things that are illogical and abnormal...
That's made life logical and normal....

Choosing psychology is my abnormal and silly decision...
It's made me normal and live with meaningful life....
LiKe the quote
"UNDERSTANDING MINDS,EMPOWERING MINDS"

12.5.10

Step into degree...

Tmr will be my new life in Degree....
Cant imagine how tough the subjects will be
as every senior told me it wasn't easy way...
I'll still take it and do whatever I could to achieve my goals...

Having so much fun for today and yesterday....
Almost out for the whole day...
And of course....
Spend very much also....
have to always remind myself....
Not to play that much...
and concentrate on my study...
As well as my coming part time job maybe....

It's really great to have so much fun and bond for today's meeting...
I really feel we are bonded today....
Interesting and a lot of joke and fun we've made....
It's a big success...
Happy, joy and surprise to see that we are really a group now...
Hope we can maintain this good relationship until the end of COS....
Perhaps we will do better in our performance....
Good relationship really uneasy to build....
All of us should appreciate the "good" we have now...
Before it fades...
Even it may not last long...
But it's enough for a part of memory in our life...

I dunno how the future will be....
I just step in...
And I know I have no return....
Gonna walk onwards and it will come to an end someday....

Good luck for everyone who back to college tmr =)

10.5.10

取舍

结束了在Port Dickson的bonding day……
感觉不错……
筹备的真的有点辛苦……
我们也玩得蛮开心的……
虽然有点晒……
但是最重要还是大家enjoy……

大家都很努力着……
希望能够营造一个不一样、但很像样的团队……
我们一定能够做得到的……
我们都同样的坚信着……

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其实在camp真的玩得不够专心……
因为很害怕自己挂上‘不孝女’的牌子……
心怎么说都会有点不安……
真的很想很想回去给个惊喜她……

我对不起妈妈……
今年的母亲节……
又不能陪在她的身边……

妈妈真的老了……
他们说人越老包容心越强……
她可能事事都能包容我们……
但是觉得自己长得越大……
能为她做的事情就越局限……
能做事情的时间也不多了……
多么的希望能珍惜每一个与妈妈的重要节日……

很遗憾我又错过了今天的机会……
很希望做点什么来弥补……
但是她却说:“傻女……”
我明白的……
只是很不甘心……
不能为您做点什么……

很羡慕那些能够为妈妈庆祝的朋友……
要记得你们是幸福的……

7.5.10

Still blog in midnite...

Going back KL again tmr....
Start my degree life hopefully...
If I get the great news from the financial assistance....
Then I will start my study officially...

As Saturday I will have a bonding day at Port Dickson with COS friends...
I cant celebrate mother's day with mum on Sunday...
It's a big day for me...
How much gratitude I could give my mum?
For now is nothing....
I always think to give something or do something for her every year....
But this year....
I failed.....
Maybe tired to think of something...
Maybe out of idea....
Or I already know what she wants...
Understanding is the most secret but powerful bond within people....
I think it should have within us...

I no need to write at here...
because you wont see it...
I no ned to write on facebook...
because you also wont know it...
I know it inside my heart...
As you do...
Keep the three words for you....
=)

4.5.10

Reminder

Went back to KL yesterday for several purposes....
The major one, have an appointment with Mr.Kenneth for financial assistance....
The minor one, get the approval for streamyx unipack and register for degree....
Though, I get to meet many friends around the corridor so...
It's really good to see them...
Going on with their life...
Continue study and work hard to fight for their life...

Today,I met with the acting head of department of psychology.
He reminds me a lot when during the interview....
He asked:"Why you can get a pretty good results in SPM but why have such a drop for your foundation?"
I'm doubting at the moment....
I know I was doing badly....
Because everyone else during the foundation considered it as a honeymoon....
I worked hard and have a different thinking during the 1st sem....
But maybe I'm an easily-get-influenced person....
So I've change in 2nd semester onwards....
Regretting is not doing best in this moment....
What I have to do is cheer up and work hard and fight for the coming degree....

He actually also reminded me a lot for the promises I made for the first day I came to KL.
A serious promise had help me spiritually during my first semester...
But obviously the promise failed because I get something else to replace this in my spirit.....
Maybe I am the only one who cares about the results....
I know myself well and should know I could do better than what I have now....

Hard work and fortune sometimes is work together....
We need to work hard first before waiting for the fortune to look for us....
No matter what it is...
We have to stay strong to face any barriers in the future =)